hey, this is gonna be a bit ramble-y as I don’t really know what to say. I’m 22 f, college student and well my mom is aging. when I was in highschool my mom injured her back, (herniated discs in her vertebrae) shes been smoking cigarettes for years and needs to be off of them for three weeks in order to get a surgery to fix them, now at 68yrs old she can barely walk, her mental state is declining. (her and I were caregivers for her parents when I was nine and she was in her 50s) suffice to say, I am horrified of what is to come. I want to cry and give up and we aren’t even to the worst part yet. I know I’m in for a long haul, I remember when it was me and her taking care of my grandparents. but now, to be twenty two years old, worried sick over what is going to happen next is haunting me. I feel angry that she had my brother and I so late, and I feel angry for the responsibility I’ve had to take on whilst living at home with her. it’s tiring. I don’t have many friends who understand, and most that do- their parents are married. I feel completely alone and afraid and I’m looking for advice or maybe just comfort of some kind. I don’t know.

sorry for the long rant, I needed to vent.