23F im looking for softness... a nest like feeling?
Sad girl looking for a stop button..
I am a 23 year old single mom of the loveliest infant. My daughter brings me joy and so much i can't seem to put in words yet. It's something i could've never prepared for..
But there's this grief.. a grief in doing it all alone...
Her dad isn't present...
On my family's side there isn't much.. as my family lives across the world.. i left when i was 13 because it was too toxic and i became depressed and suicidal and was undiagnosed with CPTSD due to the abuse..
I have moved so much in my life due to cps that i never got to settle.. i never got to stay and make long term friends....
I didn't finish school.. by the time i wanted to, i got pregnant.. so i stopped..
I've never been loved or chosen... and it's sad... because in a world where in everyone is starving... im still not chosen..
I just want to be held.. is that really that much to ask for..? I know im not perfect.. if only you could've witnessed from how far i came...
I just wanna cry, while being held and tell you about my wrist that's been sore, tell you im tired so you can suggest us cuddling until we sleep..
😭
K Bye.