Where to go from here
Pretty much every post I read on here I can relate to . I would like to consider myself a strong person mentally . I have had to be over the years for one reason or another . However the last year or so has been so so hard to deal with . I am with someone who shows zero affection to me doesn’t engage in any way apart from day to day requirements about the house and kids etc
. The only time she has come near me sexually recently is the day after she came back blind drunk and started verbally abusing me saying the most horrible vile things to me and told me we were not suited and to f#ck off into the spare room as she didn’t want to be near me . The next day she said she had no recollection of this couldn’t remember even getting in and used sex as a way to try and make it go away . I am ashamed to say I fell for this and ended up feeling shit about myself for doing so and not holding her to account as I should have . I told her exactly how she had behaved and she kept saying it was a blur ( similar has happened a couple of times before when she drinks too much , her answer is I am just not a very nice person when I am drunk )
. Surely this can’t all be menopause related and if you treat someone like that it has to be what you are thinking deep down ?
I must add we have 2 young children who I love more than anything in this world or I would seriously consider going . She does take hrt but it doesn’t seem to make a massive difference . Does this get better will things calm down? or is it just more of the same for the future ?
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