Guilt After 1 year
I had my abortion a Little more than one year ago. since I have PCO I found out at 8 weeks and at that time I was in Thailand and have to wait 2 weeks to go back home. at this Moment my son was Almost 2 years old, I was very shocked since we always wanted just One child. of course I was also thinking about to keep it but I did not feel in the Position to handle this, especially mentally. after the Abortion I felr Release but also I was sad. the following months were a Roller coaster but at about 6 months it Became better. since about one month I feel again very sad and also guilty because I had my abortion at 10 weeks and also think about how far developed the Fetus was at this time. i think the reason why I think so much about it is because a the wife of a friend of my husbund told us that she had a miss Carriarg at 10 weeks and saw the Fetus and described it. since then I think about that all the time and feel like I am the worst Person ever. also so many Friends now get their second childs or get pregnant and I ask myself of this decision back than was the Right One. I think it is so hard to Talk with people who did Not have an Abortion brause they can not understand the feelings and thoughts I have. I feel so lonley sometimes. for my husband This Topic is Not in his head anymore and I also can Not Talk to him since he does Not understand it. i feel very lost sonetimes. Is there anyone who was in a similiar Situation?