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For a bit of context, I have anxiety issues and I get sad very easily.
Ever since I've known myself, I've been scared of death but lately it's been very hard to live with these thoughts. I'm not particularly scared of my own death but of my loved ones. I'm a family oriented person and I absolutely love my parents and grandparents, but I'm constantly fighting my thoughts about their death. I find myself grieving them when they are very much alive. I am scared of a life without them and I am scared of how it will be. I know that from what I'm describing it may feel like they are normal thoughts, that everyone thinks about this once in a while but its very different for me. I THINK ABOUT THIS EVERYDAY, multiple times a day. I cant have any conversation if the topic is anything related to death, afterlife, losing someone, anything like this. It's them keeping me awake for a long time also. I wake up panicked, full of anxiety. I get anxious throughout the day because of this.
I know this is not normal and I should probably seek professional help but I just want to know if anyone is going through something similar or if they have any advice that would be helpful. Anything will do.