My SO works 8 hours away and I am 2 weeks PP.
This is a rant. Our baby was very late arriving into the world. My SO did amazing things trying to get the baby to feed, setting up the house and helping me rest the first few days post birth. We also had some medical complications with the baby the first week so we weren’t able to settle.
I have been hit badly by the baby blues since half way through week one. My SO had to leave week 2 to work 8 hours away.
He will come back and forth as much as he can.
Technically this was all planned with baby coming either early or near their due date which would have meant we had two and half to three weeks before his new work assignment started.
This didn’t happen.
My folks are here to help with the house but it isn’t the same. I am alone a lot of the day and night with the baby.
I have to double feed the baby extra milk as they aren’t feeding well enough. I am doing 14+ feeding sessions a day. The baby isn’t sleeping well and then other times is hard to wake.
I feel so frustrated, I haven’t felt this newborn glow feeling or felt like I have any bond with the baby. I haven’t been able to enjoy anything and I am so angry at my SO even though he is also unhappy. He is an industry that can’t be rescheduled so I feel totally helpless. I know it’s not his fault but I hate this and worry that my baby will be impacted by this stress I am under.
This isn’t what I wanted. I don’t feel anything positive.
Has anyone had to do this solo so early? Do you have any tips to stay sane? I have enough food, but I don’t have enough hands. How do I not resent the crap at out of my SO?
When the hell does baby blues end??? I don’t think I have PPD but could see how it might happen.
End of rant.