u/Due_Gold_3916

Okay so, I got a really fun job this year working outdoors. It is extremely physically challenging but I enjoy it. Long hours on my feet and lots of unloading things. Well, I got spoken to by the literal owner of my job, not even my primary manager, about how they have noticed a decline in my pace and they aren’t sure I can physically keep up with them. I personally thought I was doing OK. However I do think not eating anything during my shifts, over caffeinating, and late night bp before early shifts make me fatigued. I don’t want to stop bp, or maybe I do? It’s just so addictive and comforting but it makes me feel like absolute crap during my shifts. I did not mention this to the owner, just said maybe I’ve been a little lacking on sleep but that I’ll pick up my pace. They’ve given me a week to make it up to them and I have to prove I’m valuable.
It’s really scary for me and just upsetting. I know I need to quit binging and purging, but after a long shift that is the only thing I want to do to wind me down, I get like a ravenous raccoon once I’m off. Just to feel like a zombie during the day. Anything similar happen to anyone else ever? Advice?