The one symptom that always confuses me is:
“Yellow/orange skin — eating large amounts of carrots”
As someone who had bulimia for 14 years, what the actual fuck are they talking about? I’ve never eaten large amounts of carrots but I’ve seen this listed as a symptom frequently for bulimia..? Are you guys binging on carrots? What’s going on?
i’ve realised that when I’m purging, all the painful memories from my childhood come to mind and usually very random ones that I normally would never think of. This has been happening to me forever. I’ve had my bulimia since I was 13 and I am 27 now. Do you also have a similar experience?
in a really rough place after having a full month b/p free. was on sertraline for a bit but came off it as it wasn’t stopping binges completely and i got in my head about it making me gain. i keep going out to buy stuff to b/p as i live near a huge store and cant stop
Just like last year, I didn't have many places to share this sort of small personal success, but I appreciate those in here who are in similar circumstances, who understand the difficulty we all go through. So another step for my own personal achievement, still ongoing, but doing my best with it. I have fortunately been able to hit two years clear, no purging, after doing so for just shy of 14 years. It had its moments, but I would say it was definitely less challenging than the first year, and as time goes on, I can only hope for the same. For anyone out there reading, I can only wish the same as I always have done: nothing but the best for you. I know how hard it can be to relapse, to set yourself back, and the mental strain and impact that has. It's very uncomfortable and can make you feel isolated. I just want you to know you are not alone; there are so many of us out there. To err is human; you're doing your best. Just know that we all understand; take it one day at a time and don't worry about small setbacks. Celebrate the little things, anything at all, because that in and of itself is a massive achievement. Take care, everyone, and thank you for the support as always.
So my (20F) dentist today mentioned that my four upper front teeth were very rotted away at the back. Does anyone have any advice?
Does anyone else get really guilty about purging meat?
I'm not sure if I'm bulimic or have an/bp, but my biggest trigger is eating something I didn't "budget" to have and a lot of times that means I end up purging in a fast food bathroom or something like that. And every time I do I feel so hollow after because an animal DIED for me to waste it in that way. I don't know if I'm alone in this... My family tend to make fun of me or shame me for choosing plant based options because they think I'm some sort of health freak. It's funny coz I'm the opposite.
But yeah I was just thinking about that because we might be going out to dinner tonight and I pray to God it's somewhere with plant based food or something "safe." Thanks for reading my rant, friends. Remember to hydrate
My binges are usually 2,500-3,000 calories in a day unless it’s eating out, then I can get up to 3,500. I follow it by taking 2 extra strength laxatives and a suppository, fasting for 18-24 hours, and doing cardio/weight lifting. Then once I feel “clean” I can eat again ON A DIET with a FRESH START. Thats my current plan. Idk how sustainable it’s about to be, but I want to do this last cleanse and be done with this cycle. If I gain any more weight I’m going to loose it.
possible TW for talking about restriction -
Hi there’s probably a lot of context needed idk but it’s too long. basically i have b/p ana subtype. I restrict, eventually I try increase intake, stomach can’t cope, mentally can’t cope, I purge or I put more in to be capable of doing so because my stomach won’t let it out (don’t want to go into detail incase someone uses the info idk) - this would then be me binging on whatever i have missed and haven’t allowed myself. I might stop at once or might do it three or four times during the day, it’s very distressing and physically exhausting, I have given myself gastroparesis, gastritis, tooth infection, salivary gland problems from this.
to break this exhausting cycle i fasted for a period of time, then would try to eat again, then fast again. this distress has made gastroparesis so much worse, led to extreme constipation.
i’ve abused laxatives a lot prior to all this too i may have given myself lazy bowel.
i cannot move waste through my system anymore i cannot and i don’t think my muscles even push anymore. i keep having very severe comstipation (i consider them partial fecal impactions because i’ve had that before and this feels the same)
it is difficult to pass gas, i can only pee dribbles because it’s squeezing my bladder and urethra, i have intense bloating pain, drink and eating is painful in my stomach.
i keep eating, i’m so scared of it it feels like i’m going to explode. i’ve really significantly increased my intake especially carbs it’s mostly carbs right now.
i don’t know what’s going to happen to it all if it won’t come out but a doctor told me i have to eat a lot to shit but that doesn’t feel true because there’s so much stuck in me already.
my face is swelling it’s very distressing, my stomach is so swollen i feel so so so not good. has anyone else dealt with this before? did eating help? i have prescribed laxatives, stool softeners and enemas rhat i take daily. my GI tract is still having a lot of trouble moving this food through. maybe i went too far and ate too much and i need to slowly build it up? idk what to do any advice is appreciated. i’ve gone three days without purging i just binged i think i ate two bowls of food i did not really need i just mentally couldn’t stop until i had them, it’s food i would always purge. i refuse to right now i need to shit and heal my stomach for a while i’m very scared. any advice is appreciated especially on if i should be eating or not and how to get rid of facial edema thank you
I finally came out and told my wife what I had been doing. I’ve been binging and purging for 6 years. And I’ve actually put on a ton of weight. Which I don’t think is common. I think I was eating so much food there is no possible way I could get it all out. Besides the shame of purging every meal. The mental side and the financial side of paying for so much food had to stop. But I finally told her and she said she already blew and was being supportive. I have not purged since Wednesday which is probably the longest I have went since pre covid. I forgot what this is like. I feel good. Feeling better … one day at a time
Just binged and didn't purge for the first time in a while. I'm not sure how to feel about this, because ive got some sort of "hey I just binged, but I actually feel like I won't binge or purge tomorrow. I don't hope for it, I KNOW this" feeling for some reason. Also I'm pretty sure someone said you stop purging before binging.
But on the other hand I still feel guilty. I know my weight scale will go up, unlike maintain with purging. I just don't want to gain weight, I only started losing it after a long time and don't want to lose the progress. Is this is the type of misery you feel while recovering from bulimia??
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My knuckles freaking hurt so bad and I have summer football practice coming up soon for school and it already hurts, but I know the turf and hitting against the other guys' pads is going to make it soooo much more painful. My bones are literally sticking through my knuckle and its very dry and bruised, and I have some bruises going down the sides of my hand. But yeah, any way to reduce the pain and dryness? Also, side question, how do I remove some of the throat and stomach pain, I literally feel like i swallowed razors and my guts are being chopped to bits.
i can’t remember if this was real or just from a tv show or something but there was this bulimic girl who’s stomach burst open from purging.
i have no clue what flair to use so just ignore that please.
its1am i just spent the past 40 minutes cleaning the bathroom literally 3 kilos. of slop on MY BATHROOM FLOOR AND TOILET AND WALLS IW ANT TO DIE DUD EHAT THE FUCK IS THIS DUMB ASS DISORDER ALL OVER FUCKING MCDOANLDS KILL ME I WAS GOING TO POUR IT IN THE TOILET AND IT DECIDED TO BREAK???????!? IM SO HUMILIATED EVEN WORSE I DONT EVEN FEEL HUNGRY AFTER IM STILL FULL 😭😭😭 SOMEONE LOBOTOMIZE ME SO I CAN BE FREE FROM RHIS
Okay so I've never made a post on this sub or on reddit before but I think this has gotten pretty bad and I think I need help in this particular situation, so for reference I'm a minor I am underweight but the problem is for the past couple of days I've been purging and binging literally everyday constantly almost anything I ate , I've never really purged this much before and I even threw up blood I don't know if it's because I scratched myself or something, I am feeling very weird and extremely thirsty wich obviously I of course know why I did buy some electrolytes that you put in water but obviously it hasn't helped, I am alone at home and have been for the last couple of days and I keep eating to the point that I feel sick then purging , Im also feeling very cold...so...do I need to go to the hospital....the problem is I'm obviously not going to tell the doctors that I've been doing this on purpose but also do you think they will actually help?I'm really thirsty really thirsty.......
I was diagnosed with bulimia in April. My psychiatrist is tapering me off wellbutrin bc she wasn't aware of my restriction with my binge eating. I've recently become obsessed with purging and was wondering what anyone's experience was with purging/wellbutrin. I think I had pre seizure symptoms while purging the other day. I was seeing stars (normal), and during the most violent part, I felt intense electric shock/tingles from the back of my head to my spine. It scared me, but I kept going and survived.
What's your experience with this as I taper off?
Basically, what the title says. When I purge, which is relatively new to my ED, I don't get rid of all of my food. Mainly because I try to stay discrete from my spouse. I just don't have the time. They know I'm bulimic so they watch me, so my purge windows are very limited.
I feel invalid. I don't empty my stomach. Sometimes, I only get rid of 1/4 cup of food. I don't feel sick enough.
Any other ice cream enjoyers always have it come out cold? It's such a weird feeling 😭
Was planning my next binge purge, when realized how ridiculous it is. I genuinely don't know how to prevent the possible binging. Do I distract myself? Does going out for walks helped anyone?? I'm so anxious because I want to bp, but obviously I have to stop it somehow
Hi, first time posting and I wasn’t sure which flair to use. If this isn’t appropriate for the sub, please let me know and I’ll delete it. I need help and idk where to go with any of this.
Pro-recovery sentiment, but CW: purging
I opened up to my primary care doc about my eating disorder and needing help figuring out how to safely stop using laxatives. She was very dismissive and told me that I would have to work with a specialist before sending in a referral for a clinic that is a) in a different time zone (CST vs PST and several states away; Zoom/telehealth/etc wouldn’t be accessible due to my work schedule) and b) for a teenage client base (I am 29). I’m already working with a therapist and psych, and coordinating with a nutritionist is proving to be difficult re: no insurance, so I wanted to see if anyone here has any experience successfully stopping this particular purge method.
Details: >!I have been using Senna on a daily basis since late 2023/early 2024. I used to take four 8.6 mg tablets a day but have gotten down to 2 or 3 (variable, depends on if I’ve binged or not). I don’t know if I should switch over to like a stool softener or something instead as I slowly try to get back to a normal baseline? I don’t have insurance right now so winding up in the ER with a bowel obstruction or something is not ideal in the slightest.!<
Thank you for reading this far, I appreciate it. Also just fyi, my replies might be a bit late—I promise I’m not ignoring anyone, my browser is just not great at notifying me!
Since 2023 I have been well purging by vomiting and it sucks. It recently got way worse and my teeth are ruined even more. But, it's not even helping in weight loss, like none. It feels like I'm doing this for no reason. But why is it happening? and I feel constant fatigue, what's the reason for that? And I've gained like 10 kgs since 2023, maybe because my height is growing and I'm a child, what do I do omg?