This is so damn frustrating, but as soon as I was done p*rging today I was immediately hungry again. And now I am trying not to eat anything because I know that will just start the cycle over and I can’t do this all night. This was the 2nd time today already.
Does this happen to anyone else?
So sick of this fuck ass disorder
Rant incoming
Also: “try therapy, get off social media, comparison is the thief of joy”, etc etc, yes I know. I practice it but sometimes you gotta acknowledge the feelings so you can work through them.
I’m at the age now (mid 30s) where most people I know are parents and have been, or they decided awhile ago that it’s not for them. Well apparently lately tons of people I know have decided they wanted kids all of a sudden or have had an “oopsie” surprise pregnancy and have just rolled with it. And it fucking kills me. People who are so nonchalant about being parents are just magically blessed with getting pregnant so easily. My husband works with a dude who was pretty vocal about not wanting kids and him and his wife had plans to do a bunch of things overseas, then one day he’s like yeah they changed their mind and they got pregnant right away. And he had the audacity to tell my husband that it’s not that hard to get pregnant with your first kid. We’ve been at this for 3 years.
I can’t go online anywhere, here, insta, so on, without someone posting about a surprise pregnancy or they started trying and got it on their first month. It falls into their lap. How can I not be jealous?
Every month it’s just crushing. Yes we’re seeing the specialists, yes we’ve done all the lifestyle changes, done all the crazy rituals and wishing. I am envious of all the people who are just out here getting pregnant with no effort. I’m hoping this month is the month but I’m not holding my breath. At least I can still eat sushi and drink alcohol I guess.
Thanks for reading
Rant incoming
Also: “try therapy, get off social media, comparison is the thief of joy”, etc etc, yes I know. I practice it but sometimes you gotta acknowledge the feelings so you can work through them.
I’m at the age now (mid 30s) where most people I know are parents and have been, or they decided awhile ago that it’s not for them. Well apparently lately tons of people I know have decided they wanted kids all of a sudden or have had an “oopsie” surprise pregnancy and have just rolled with it. And it fucking kills me. People who are so nonchalant about being parents are just magically blessed with getting pregnant so easily. My husband works with a dude who was pretty vocal about not wanting kids and him and his wife had plans to do a bunch of things overseas, then one day he’s like yeah they changed their mind and they got pregnant right away. And he had the audacity to tell my husband that it’s not that hard to get pregnant with your first kid. We’ve been at this for 3 years.
I can’t go online anywhere, here, insta, so on, without someone posting about a surprise pregnancy or they started trying and got it on their first month. It falls into their lap. How can I not be jealous?
Every month it’s just crushing. Yes we’re seeing the specialists, yes we’ve done all the lifestyle changes, done all the crazy rituals and wishing. I am envious of all the people who are just out here getting pregnant with no effort. I’m hoping this month is the month but I’m not holding my breath. At least I can still eat sushi and drink alcohol I guess.
Thanks for reading
I know this is gonna sound unhinged but I hope you guys get where I’m coming from
So I apparently picked up norovirus while I was at Disney (my mistake) and I have been suffering the last few days. Everything that passes my lips just goes right through me. On the flip side though, I have only been mildly hungry. I haven’t b/p’d in days. Is this what normal people feel like? Minus the shitting your brains out, is this how normal people function? I ate a little bit and then I felt full and probably because my gut feels horrible, but I haven’t had the urge to binge every edible thing in sight. I have a ton of binge food just sitting around and I haven’t had the compulsion to get into it yet. I haven’t even really had any food noise. Hoping this feeling somehow persists after the norovirus passes.
10+ years of bulimia and I’ve never been so “glad” to have caught an illness like this, ugh…