u/Robert_Frosted_Flake

hi im not sure if i belong here, if not, i apologize- please remove my post.

ive been lurking on this sub for years, but not for me. for my mom. she’s been bulimic my whole life, and im still desperately trying to understand this illness- so i can understand her more.

for context, i am 43f and she is 65. i have not lived with her since i was 11 (my choice), and have been no contact with her for 10 years.

she has a good heart but has been completely high jacked by this disease. i am the oldest, so i naturally beared the brunt of her behavior, which was erratic and abusive to say the least. but i know that she wasn’t in her right mind, i know the depraved things she did were partly because the eating disorder demon was running the show.

i thought as i got older, things would make more sense and i’d be able to find some deeper meaning or closure, but as the years go on im left with more questions than answers.

so here i am. in this sub again, sifting through experiences and looking for a thread of meaning. and i’ve finally worked up the courage to ask..

how do you think this illness starts? is it fueled by body image, or is it something else?

how and why does it progress? like what makes it worse and why?

when it gets really bad and you’re really unhealthy, do you realize it?

a kid’s band name from north side Chicago :)

i don’t think this crime would have happened without the dangerous cocktail of pharmaceuticals she was given. she looked for help over and over again in a broken system that could only throw more pills at her instead of actually helping. mere toxic substances that were exasperating her sleep deprivation and stress. poor thing had 3 babies in 3 years, the first 2 were barely a year apart. im not saying what she did is justified, but i don’t think she should be held criminally responsible. my heart breaks for her, the ex husband, and the family.

i can’t express this anywhere but this sub and i appreciate being able to say it here.

yayyyy!!! i’ve been saving up for my first quality panel, and just found out i could use my HSA at Hooga.com!!! even upgraded and got the Ultra model!! so stoked!!!

my RLT story:

thought it was woowoo for the longest time. ran into a friend i hadn’t seen in a while and they looked incredible, and when i asked what was up they told me about Red Light. i kinda didn’t believe it at first but gave it a shot.. that was 3 years ago, and the benefits have been undeniable :)

are their positions temporary or permanent, and if temporary how long do they stay at a store?

I love Saffron Extract but it makes me feel so dry and endlessly thirsty, and Im trying to figure out what could be causing this and if there’s anything I can do about it? I take 30mg 2x per day, drink TONS of water w electrolytes and collagen, and i try to take it with a good meal of fatty food. i just ordered some White Jelly Mushroom bc my skin has been so dry and im hoping this will help. has anyone else felt dehydrated while taking Saffron?

hello everyone,

Ive been taking Saffron extract daily for almost 3 months now and have been finding it lost it’s positive effects recently. i typically would take 30-60mg a day, and over the past couple weeks i have not been getting the mood boost or focus that i love.

has anyone else who has supplemented with Saffron experience this? i am considering taking a break then restarting it to see if i regain some of the positive effects

hello everyone, Ive been taking Saffron extract daily for almost 3 months now and have been finding it lost it’s positive effects recently. i typically would take 30-60mg a day, and over the past couple weeks i have not been getting the mood boost or focus that i love.

any advice on how to regain the positive benefits i had before? im considering taking a little break then restarting it to see if that helps.