Being black Bi and feeling rejected
Been thinking of posting something for a while. Black guy. Bisexual but more into guys. I feel I always have to explain that. Id consider myself a "masculine " guy, and I like the same and would seek others like myself. I tend to have trouble with finding just fun or folks that are genuinely interested in me. I feel like i fit some fetish or preference sometimes. I travel for work, prior military so im used to bouncing cities. Im not a hookup type of person. I like to meet someone, have a drink, and just hang/ go with the vibe if that happens. I cant keep any serious relationships and it feels like its always me that's the problem even though whatever connection or relationship built ends because of the other person. I've heard the "its not you its me" or "wasnt the right time" or "I wasnt ready for that" over and over. Or months or years later i get those quotes or an apology. Don't get me wrong ive had my fair share of failures, just figuring myself out and what I really want but I always end up alone or trying to be different to gain approval. Is it just the nature of being bi but into more masculine guy? Is it that im brown but dont fit into a specific box? Doomed to be single because I dont buy into the hookup culture and feel someone true is out there?