So I found what everyone's been searching for. Right in front of my face lol! (questions followed)
And it’s been here all this time. Madness lol. Now I understand the irony of spirituality. All this searching around for what seems like eternity, when, as soon as you’ve placed those books down it suddenly starts to reveal itself.
I’ve been hitting these bliss states from time to time, unaware that those moments are what I’ve been looking for. Small pockets of stillness that somehow makes one feel enough. I’d liken it to being tapped on the shoulder or a nudge by a friend you haven’t seen for a while, encompassed by a warmth. A reminder that you’ve, once again, drifted off into the background. Fascinating stuff.
Also, there was a massive aha moment while at work. Midway through the day I noticed that the mind was, once again, always wanting to be somewhere else or something else need to be the most important thing. And it clicked! Followed by laughter. Where exactly is one heading too, that hasn’t already been reached. Very surreal.
However, there are some questions..
Now that ones have finally understood what’s been right in front of them the whole time (up until this point), more thoughts have arisen. Can one make the assumption that more will be revealed through stronger, more prolonged moments? (like washing dishes, brushing teeth, chopping vegetables, and nature walks etc)
And what about action? Where does this come into play?
Honestly, I actually think this is where I depart, most, if not all spirituality and integrate back to the masses, anyway (minus mediation and asanas). I want to have fun again. After all, isn’t it another bullsh*t trap? People will be people regardless and the machine will continue grinding, BUT, are we saying that there is no need to press to do anything at all and everything that plays out is what’s been written? Is this where letting go comes in?
Which leads onto my second question..
By allowing oneself to become fully present and allowing each moment to eventually connect to the next like a trail of breadcrumbs. Will the path become clearer, with regards to a purpose? Because I really do not have an inkling. Arriving to an empty canvas everyday for the last year has left me void of any sort of inspiration.
What about this intuition or internal guiding system? Is more trust needed while sitting in stillness? Or is this another reason to do nothing that the ego created? Self action perhaps?
I get the idea is to eradicate psychological suffering through being present. No problem. But one can’t really sit on their a*se all day and expect a new job or lover. No, right?
How does one form action that is a truer version of themselves? Trial and error?
Is this a particular stage on the map?
I've become too logical again haven't I? haha.