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Esther Hicks's books changed my life and I feel she is a GIFT to this world, and Joe Dispenza is also awesome, but but BUT...
I can't help but wonder how much cash is sitting in their bank accounts, not being used to help people. Just sitting there being hoarded. I know that "worth" does not mean the same thing as actual cash sitting around. Then again, how many million-dollar homes does one person need?
If you had 10 million dollars net worth, what would you do with it?
For me, I think ONE million dollars would feel sufficiently abundant and I could put the other nine million dollars out in the world to help people or animals or the planet.
You could argue that Esther and Joe have done more than enough for the world already and they deserve luxury and abundance and you would be right. But it seems that ONE million dollars can provide a lot of luxury and abundance.

EDITING TO ADD/CLARIFY: I believe the crux of the matter... the thing that is niggling away in the back of my mind... is the faint possibility of greed and hypocrisy among spiritual leaders. I say "possibility" because it might not be that at all. I am open to others' perspectives about this. That is why I use the word QUESTION in the post title. I am curious about what others would do if they had a net worth of 10 million dollars. (And btw hardly anyone has answered that question in their comments.)
I am always hoping for an honest and real conversation that acknowledges a subject versus cult-speak that dances around it or condemns the person who dared to ask a question.

1. Being present - Cuts off the frantic need of ego to project future or wailing in guilt of past.
2. Acceptance - Acceptance of what is , as it is , without trying to change anything at all in external world and in inernal world too.
3. Surrender- Trustig in flow of life without trying to control it.
4. Concentration- Being so deeply absorbed in work that ego vanishes in the process.
5. Inaction- Performing action as dicated by nature for joy without any expectation of external fruits.
6. Knowledge-Relentlessly observing and contemplating how the ego identifies with external circumstances and weakening its influence.
7. Letting go of illusion of doership- Realising that actions happen automaticaly through body-mind system and we can not control them ,thereby releiving ourselves from pride and guilt associated with actions.
8. Being natural and innocent- By shedding of various marks and allwoing oneself to be judged for what one is,one returns to naural divine state shortly.
9. Cultivating the Witness Consciousness- Instead of identifying as the actor, become a mere observer (Drashta or Sakshi) of your own actions, thoughts, and emotions,. When you distance yourself from your nature and simply watch your life unfold like a movie without interfering, the ego dissolves, and you connect with your true, witnessing soul.
10. Transcending Dualities : The intellect and ego survive by dividing the world into dualities: good and bad, sin and virtue, honor and insult, success and failure,. By maintaining equanimity and accepting whatever comes without categorizing it as positive or negative, you starve the ego.
11. Drop all forms of stubbornness- Not forcing our will on the world bu just doing what happens naturally and with ease and accpeting the outcome with contentment.

~ Why Are We Alive? ~

If we believe, as many do, the meaning of life is to make money, buy material possessions, have a family, and enjoy the best things life offers, then, though we may be successful, achieving all our goals, we will have lived our life without meaning or purpose. Focusing only on ourself, not selflessly sharing our success with others, our impact on the world, regardless of our accomplishments, will be insignificant.

It is only those who freely share their innate wisdom and unconditional love with others, irrespective of our many differences, who will discover the genuine reason for our life’s journey. Money, material possessions, or anything else found in the world are not necessary to do so. A poor, homeless, uneducated person from a distant land may live a far more purposeful life than one who is wealthy, famous, and has a prestigious job.

Those living their life only for their own benefit, though they and others may believe they have led a meaningful life, have not. Their life will soon be forgotten with the inevitable passage of time. It is only those who sincerely help and share their unconditional love and wisdom, their essence, with others, without motive or benefit, who will truly discover the genuine reason we are alive.

I say some really dumb stuff to people on the Internet. Stuff I wouldn't dare say to a stranger on the street, let alone coworkers, friends or family. Just making up stuff to get a fix.

Stuff like "This is a mirror."
No it isn't. It's a screen.

You can turn it off and maybe see a reflection but it's nowhere near the reflection of a mirror. Then I get stupider: "I AM a mirror!"

Now whatever anybody says to me doesn't apply. I'm above and beyond it and they're hurr-durr talking to themselves. Silly.

Hiding behind a screen name, snarky and snickering, in bed, probably in boxers.

God forbid I do something productive, like wash a dish or take a walk. No. I must win this battle of words to Enlighten a stranger.

Then they stop talking, responding, engaging, giving me attention. Now what?

Them*
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Some of you are terrified to face the only Gatekeeper to your Power.

That strange, dull, beautiful, and terrifying feeling that both nauseates you and arouses you.

The dark chill of truth.

That is why you are here.

You look at pictures, read stories, and listen to music that reminds you of that ache, because you want to feel its charge without being devoured by it.

Before the ego is disciplined, you hate that you love it.

Because it forces contact with reality.

You want the thrill without the surrender, and that always costs more than you have.

Then, some of you finally surrender.

And that terrifying place becomes a dark, vibrant source of vitality and life.

A refuge from evil and loneliness.

The most intimate gathering.

Stop running away from that “thing.”

Whatever that “thing” is.

Surrender.

Forgive what you accused God of.

Forgive them.

Forgive yourself.

Hold the responsible accountable in truth.

Breathe.

Fix your back.

Revisit what you think you know.

Recognize truth from falsehood again.

Declare, out loud, where you mistook distortion for destiny:

“I thought our connection was fate because of its intensity.

But the source of that intensity was distortion.

Not embodied signal.

It was a mixed gate.

Or a false gate.”

As clarity returns, the heart releases.

And your life finally stops feeling like you are waiting for “SOMETHING” before you begin.

Today.

NOW

Seeing it as a dream come after space. The practice comes after space. Everything comes after space. Which means teaching and learning comes after space not before. So how can there be learning or teaching.

Choices comes after space so how can there be choices? True choice must be before space which does not exist.

Also you can say that the teaching is coming from yourself. Therefore, there is no teacher or student. After enlightenment, there is only space because the teacher and student is completely exposed. There cannot be teaching after enlightenment unless there is no enlightenment.

If you are still teaching or speaking about this, you have not yet completed the process.

The wonderer swims in the ocean without claiming to be its master.

The “knower” builds a "mighty boat" of concepts and believes in life, death, heaven, hell and then spends the rest of existence terrified of falling off it and creates and prays to God for safety or eternal bliss.

Wonder itself is not a state belonging to a person; it is the Self peering at its own reflection and smiling at the game.

The moment the mind says “I know,” it has already mistaken the map for the territory. The curse is not knowledge per se, but identification with the knower.

The blessed ones keep the question alive, “Who is it that wonders?” Who is it that is alive? "Who is suffering?" "Who wants to know?" "Who am I?" until even the question dissolves, and what remains is pure Am, prior to the beginning of all these concepts of the opposites - beginning and ending, good and bad, life and death, heaven and hell and so on and so on...

So perhaps the highest blessing is to wonder as That which is never born and never dies… while still laughing at the beautiful absurdity of the dream.

Tat tvam asi

🙏

Isn't it strange how defensive we get over our beliefs? Strange at first and then silly. Even in private study we can notice the bars of belief rattle when the cage is shook.

It's like yesterday when people find out from a now deleted post that Jesus isn't his name. Whoever they wrote about. His original name is Aramaic for a Hebrew name. Even so the Aramaic name is shorthand for that original name which also happens to be very common.

The name "Jesus" comes from a Greek word which sounds like ee-ay-SOOS. Or more like the Spanish way of saying it. The English version actually passes through Latin from Greek. What a journey.

His original name means "Yahweh is salvation." Of course Yahweh is the Hebrew name for G-d which is the ineffable ground of being all the mystics brag about.

Joshua. That's the transliteration from Hebrew which the shorthand Aramaic ends up being something like Josh. Not as a nickname though. Just Josh.

Ironically, calling him Josh makes him even more human. The story has a grounded mystical tone rather than a detached mythical one. Josh as a name is approachable whereas the name Jesus carries a whole swath of conditioning which is exactly what Awakening dissolves.

All that to say if you keep going you may end up hating Jesus too. Not literally. You end up seeing through the conditioning. That's all.

Lately I’ve been watching people act like the universe shook their snow globe — insomnia, random insights, emotional outbursts, weird dreams, sudden clarity, and group chats turning into cosmic comedy hours.

And honestly?
There’s a reason for it.

1. Geomagnetic storms mess with more than satellites

When the sun spits out a solar flare, it hits Earth’s magnetic field. Science calls it “space weather.” Your nervous system calls it: “Why am I like this today.”

These storms can influence:

• sleep cycles
• heart rate variability
• mood regulation
• cognitive clarity
• emotional sensitivity

Not because you’re fragile — but because your body is an electrical system living inside a magnetic planet.

2. Sensitive people feel it first

Some people don’t notice anything.
Others (hi, it’s me) feel it like a pressure change in the soul.

If you’re intuitive, empathic, or energetically aware, you might experience:

• sudden insights
• emotional waves
• feeling “off”
• buzzing or restlessness
• heightened intuition
• picking up on other people’s moods

This isn’t “woo.” It’s literally your system responding to environmental shifts.

3. And then the collective starts acting… unhinged

Last night my Meteoagent app chat looked like:

• “The planet is a donut.”
• “Alexa cancelled Christmas.”
• “Salt water distributes energy.”
• “Cosmic energies are messing with my alignment.”

People who never talk about energy suddenly become part-time mystics during solar storms. It’s hilarious and weirdly accurate.

4. You’re not crazy — you’re just tuned in

If you’ve been feeling things before others notice? If you sense emotional mismatch instantly? If you get intuitive hits during these spikes?

You’re not malfunctioning.
You’re just wired to pick up subtle shifts most people only feel once it’s loud.

5. The takeaway

Geomagnetic storms don’t mean doom.
They just amplify whatever is already happening inside and around us.

So if you’re feeling weird lately?
Blame the sun.
Drink some water.
Ground yourself.
And maybe don’t pick fights during a Kp7 event.

Your body isn’t broken.
The planet is just vibing loudly.

This is a healing account from Dr. Bradley Nelson's Emotion Code. This is told by Betty, who adopted Julie. Julie was born to a mother who was addicted to cocaine. Julie had cerebral palsy, intellectual disability, and severe asthma before Dr. Nelson used the Emotion Code to help her.

>We got Julie when she was a day old; she was a drug-exposed baby, and we planned on adopting her. She was sick, and in and out of the hospital at least three or four times a month with severe asthma, and was on a machine to help her breathe, on prednisone and two or three other asthma medicines. She had cerebral palsy, and her behavior was just terrible.

>We found Dr. Nelson for my mother, who was not doing well. And after seeing how far along she came, we decided to bring Julie to him. She has seen Dr. Nelson for thirteen treatments, and when we came, she was in the hospital seven times in December, and she was on a machine. It's been three weeks since she has had any asthma medicine or the asthma machine or anything. She is doing really well. She is walking much better, and her bad behavior is almost gone.

>She is talking now. When we started bringing her in, her speech was not there. She's talking, counting, and doing very, very well. We are very pleased and very happy with the results so far. She is just a different child. It was to the point that we didn't know if we were going to make it through a day with her or not between the asthma and her fit-throwing; she could have fits that would last for two-and-a-half hours. Now she may get irritated, but no fits; she might cry a little bit, but that's about it. We feel very happy and we feel very good!

>-Betty R.

In the book, Dr. Nelson shares that Julie continued to improve, and before long, Julie's doctors informed Betty that they were withdrawing their diagnoses of cerebral palsy and intellectual ability.

This community was created for people who are curious enough to question what they see, hear, and believe.

Not because questioning is an end in itself, but because growth often begins where certainty ends.

Wake Up Neo is not about telling people what to think.

It is about learning how to think more clearly.

It is a place for discussions about:

• Self-awareness • Metacognition • Emotional intelligence • Philosophy • Meaning and purpose • Human behavior • Society and culture • Critical thinking • Personal growth

You do not need to agree with everyone here.

In fact, disagreement is often where learning begins.

What matters is curiosity, respect, and the willingness to examine our own assumptions.

The goal is not to win arguments.

The goal is to understand ourselves and the world a little better than we did yesterday.

If you are here, introduce yourself.

What was the idea, book, experience, or moment that first made you question the way you see reality?

Welcome to the conversation.

The Wake Up Neo Community

When the internal monologue realizes no one is listening.

Ego is a shape‑shifter. It can imitate almost anything on the surface. It can copy insight, humility, spiritual language, compassion, even the appearance of clarity. It can perform sincerity. It can act gentle. It can pretend to be wise. It can mimic the posture of someone who has done inner work. Ego can even imitate stillness, but only as a performance, never as a state. Ego can wear any mask. It adapts to whatever keeps it alive, switching strategies the moment one stops working. This is why people get confused. The mind can generate a version of “growth” that looks clean from the outside but still carries the internal pressure of identity.

What ego cannot imitate is the felt‑quality of what’s genuine. Ego can copy the behavior, but it cannot copy the texture. It cannot reproduce the simplicity, the quietness, the unobstructed presence that appears when the usual ego‑push drops. It cannot fake the absence of contraction. It cannot fake the lack of self‑importance. It cannot fake the natural stillness that doesn’t need to be held, maintained, or performed. Ego can mimic the shape of virtue, but not the state of virtue.

The reason ego can’t imitate real stillness is because stillness belongs to Essence, the part of you that sees clearly without distortion. Essence is the quiet, present awareness underneath all the ego‑noise. It’s already there, it’s just covered. Essence is your available consciousness: the portion of your awareness that is free, present, and capable of seeing without distortion. Most of your consciousness is not available, it’s locked inside ego patterns, reactions, fears, identities, and conditioned interpretations. As ego dissolves, that trapped consciousness is released. You don’t “gain” Essence, you recover it. Awakening is simply the process of freeing consciousness from ego so it becomes available again. Essence is also the seed of the soul, the part of you that can grow into something higher as ego dissolves.

This is why learning the texture of ego matters. One of the hardest parts of inner work is recognising ego in real time, not in hindsight, not after reflection, but in the moment. And at the beginning, this can be genuinely difficult. Some tension comes from ego. Some tension comes from growth. Some tension comes from exposure. Some tension comes from unfamiliarity. Ego tension always has urgency. The other tensions don’t, they have discomfort, but not urgency. They all feel similar at first, and the mind tries to interpret them. The mind adds interpretation automatically, usually without you noticing, and that interpretation is almost always wrong. But ego doesn’t show up as a thought. It shows up as texture, a felt signature in the body.

The most direct way to learn that texture is to start with the movements that are always ego. Not the subtle ones. Not the ambiguous ones. Not the ones that depend on intention. The ones that are so concrete that the moment they appear, you can say, “This is ego. No debate.” These movements carry the unmistakable emotional signature of ego: tightening, urgency, pressure, self‑importance, contraction around identity. Ego always carries a kind of urgency, either a push toward something or a resistance away from something. Essence never does.

The urge to say “I told you so.”

The impulse to take credit for something others contributed to.

The desire to subtly mention your achievements.

The urge to interrupt someone to correct a detail that doesn’t matter.

The impulse to have the last word.

The urge to make someone feel guilty to get what you want.

The desire to be seen as the victim when you weren’t harmed.

The impulse to humble‑brag.

The urge to punish someone with silence or withdrawal.

The desire to be admired for your “growth.”

The impulse to make a conversation about you when it wasn’t.

The urge to correct someone publicly so others see you as knowledgeable.

The desire to be the exception to the rule.

The impulse to hide a mistake so you don’t look bad.

The urge to one‑up someone’s story.

The desire to be right when the truth doesn’t matter.

The impulse to make someone feel small so you feel big.

The urge to defend yourself when you weren’t attacked.

The desire to be praised for something you did privately.

The impulse to explain your intentions so you don’t look bad.

The impulse to perform compassion, humility, or vulnerability so others see you as “good.”

The urge to moralize or judge to feel superior.

The impulse to project your own impulse onto someone else.

The urge to minimize someone’s experience so you stay comfortable.

The desire to feel special for suffering or for being “self‑aware.”

The impulse to offer kindness only when it benefits your image or identity.

These are the outer movements of ego, the surface layer that appears first and is easiest to recognise. Seeing them in yourself is a genuine breakthrough. Most people never see ego at this level because it requires sincerity, humility, and the willingness to look directly at what arises without justification or avoidance. Ego doesn’t like being recognised, and it will try to justify, reinterpret, or hide these impulses. You have to be willing to see what actually arises, not what you wish were arising. Each ego‑movement is one of the many “I”s inside us, a small living entity with its own desire, fear, and agenda, convinced it is the real ‘me,’ competing for control, wanting to continue, to feed, and not to die.

These movements are not subtle. They’re not spiritual. They’re not “maybe ego, maybe intuition.” They are ego in its raw form. And when you observe them in yourself, something important happens: you start to learn the felt‑sense of ego. You begin to recognise the tightening, the urgency, the pressure, the identity‑protection, the emotional contraction. Once you can recognise these unmistakable movements, you begin to see the more subtle ones. You start to feel the difference between ego tension and the other forms of discomfort that appear later in growth, even though they feel similar at first.

And whenever you notice ego arise, whether loud or subtle, the inner procedure is always the same. You see it clearly, without flinching. You allow the sensation to be there without resisting it. You don’t fight it or try to suppress it, because pushing against ego only strengthens it. You let the movement pass on its own, without acting from it. And you stay present with the felt‑sense instead of the story. This simple process is what dissolves ego over time: recognition, allowance, non‑identification, and letting the impulse fade without feeding it.

As you begin to recognise these ego‑impulses in real time, something subtle but important happens: the virtue underneath them becomes easier to access. You don’t have to fight the ego or suppress it. You simply see it clearly enough that it loses its authority. And when the ego‑movement loses its force, the clean movement underneath, honesty, clarity, humility, precision, sincerity, begins to express itself naturally. Virtue doesn’t require effort. It only requires the absence of ego.

But ego can also be complicated, deep, and multilayered. Some ego‑structures are simple impulses that dissolve through observation alone. Others are strong egos, patterns built from childhood wounds, identity architecture, emotional memory, and years of reinforcement. These don’t dissolve just because you notice them. They require comprehension: understanding what the ego protects, what it fears, what it believes, and how it formed. This is deeper inner work, meditation, reflection, sincerity, and the willingness to see uncomfortable truths. And even here, presence is still the foundation. Without presence, comprehension becomes more ego‑story. With presence, comprehension becomes transformation.

As ego dissolves, the loud texture fades. The contractions soften. The emotional spikes disappear. What remains is structure, subtle, quiet, architectural. Ego at this stage doesn’t feel like ego. It feels like “just a thought,” “just a preference,” “just how I am.” It shows up as micro‑movements, faint pulls, tiny narratives, slight distortions, subtle identification reflexes, shifts in attention, and small preferences that feel natural. This ego hides inside what feels normal. It’s harder to detect because it doesn’t announce itself. It doesn’t push. It doesn’t panic. It doesn’t spike. It simply nudges. And as this inner architecture shifts, your external life begins to shift as well, because the outer world mirrors the inner world. Change inside, and the reflection changes automatically.

And beneath all of this is Essence, the part of you that is already awake. Essence doesn’t push, defend, perform, or contract. It simply witnesses. When ego is active, you get pulled into interpretations and the many “I”s that appear in reaction to life. When Essence is active, you see those movements clearly without becoming them. This seeing is self‑observation, the ability to witness the inner world without being trapped inside it.

Essence feels like openness instead of contraction, clarity instead of urgency, sincerity instead of strategy, presence instead of performance. When you act from Essence, you move from peace, steadiness, and clean intention. This is the beginning of real change, seeing objectively from the part of you that is not ego.

Discernment develops not by guessing, not by trying to be perfect, and not by waiting for intuition to be flawless, but by learning the unmistakable signature of ego and the unmistakable signature of Essence. Over time, sometimes slowly, sometimes suddenly, this sensitivity deepens. When you can feel both clearly, ego loses most of its power, because you can sense it even when it’s subtle. And when you can feel Essence clearly, you don’t have to force it. You simply stop leaving it.

-Riven

The ignorance in this world is so great it has trascended any moral consideration and just becomes like water to a fish. It is a known joke that experts in any discipline wildly overestimate the average familiarity of the common man with it. The geologist mocks the average human for being unable to tell one feldspar to another. So stupid. The joke being, they are ignorant themselves about what the average human knows, which is not a lot.

The recent parents are now greasing their fingers with vaseline and stimulating the asshole of a newborn that hasn't discovered yet how to poop. Someone mentions skid marks in their underpants. In passing, like a normal thing. When you wipe your ass, you should do so from the inside to the outside. If you push the shit back inside, it will come back out later. Paper is ok, water and soap with the same motion is better. Always wash your hands thoroughly with soap to prevent infections. Even with that, change your underwear preferably daily, minimum every other day.

A teacher I had in elementary school discovered this worrying lack around 30 years ago. Poor Damien and his existential teaching crisis. What's the point of teaching maths and lingüistics and the ancients lineages of kings if this gal can't take a shower right? Wash yourself from top to bottom so the muck falls down. Shouldn't we spend some time teaching hygiene *before* algebra?

Same goes with spirituality, awakening, or enlightenment. Everyone gets all pumped up in accusing each other of dualistic thinking, of speaking through the Ego, of mistaking an epiphany for a rapture wait... Is that last one too much to ask? When you ask something out of someone, even if they owe it to you or you're paying for it, say "please"; when someone does something to please you, even if you didn't ask or need for it, say "thank you"; when someone is bothered by something you've done, even if you had all the right to do so, say "sorry". That's the basis for good manners.

You're all going to keep talking about how it's like my body doesn't ache or feel so heavy when I meditate and your morning breakfast is a brisket smeared in peanut butter. Cravings of food are a veiled way for the body to tell you what it needs. When your mind wants sweets, what the body actually needs is fruits and vitamins. It's only recently that we have been able to separate the sugar from the fruit. Your body is still asking for what it needs (carbs, protein, iron, omega-3, b9, whatever), but someone discovered they could make a ton of money by appeasing the sensation without addressing the underlying cause of the desire. Coca cola doesn't quench your thirst, it only feels like it does: it actually dehydrates you. Quit drinking soda! You actually want water and vitamins.

Same happens with the use of technology. A videogame provides the sense of achievement without any actual achievement, I keep doomscrolling for information but I leave more confused than I began, I fuck some dumb chick on Tinder but I still don't feel love or connection. Remember, only yes means yes is the basis for consent. Learning how to actually address the causes of desire can do more to liberate you from their grasp than a million vipassana retreats. When a desire is fulfilled, it's gone. Go have a delicious nutritive meal, pursue your ambitions to your heart's content, fall in love and feel the greatest of attachment to your children. Leave spirituality alone.

This is going to be long.

Because you're right in thinking this PSA is not actually about spirituality. This is wellness and self-improvement properly done. Learning how to maintain hygiene, give your body what it needs, hold a job, keep a budget. These are things not even the most elevated of mystical experience will give you, and to pretend it will fix your life is overextending our discipline. The circadian cycle of human activity spans 25 hours, while the day lasts only 24. But the melatonin produced while receiving sunlight and doing exercise shortens it. This means, if you don't spend enough time outside or exercising physically, you'll have problems sleeping, and the pharmacist will have to come with pills and benzos to help you at the cost of their side effects.

I have a motto: "Mundane solutions for mundane problems, spiritual solutions for spiritual problems". Exercise isn't going to help you lose weight, we're quite efficient machines in that respect, burn very little calories. Exercise builds muscle growth, and muscle fibers consume way more calories continuously. Sometimes the problem is not in knowing you have to go to the gym, but bringing yourself to do it.

There we can come, and explain you're not actually split into two selves with the whole cosmogony to back it up, or say that habits shouldn't be build on emotion alone. Whatever you want, the cost of having to move your ass to the gym is going to override it sooner or later. Your brain is always balancing cost vs reward. A good heuristic for keeping a budget is the 50-30-20 rule. From your total income, fixed expenditures shouldn't be more than half, and 20% you should be able to save for eventualities. Most people never get there, but when the proportions break, it's a sign you're living above your means and your situation may not be sustainable in the long run. You've seen the rent bills. The goal may be unachievable but that doesn't mean the situation is sustainable. Know where you stand, specially if that's on the border of a precipice.

Not thinking about it isn't going to make the problem go away. That's usually the first instinct: to deny the problem and stay in bed. A military officer once told me 90% of living your best life is being where you have to be when you have to be and that this is the secret to holding any type of job. Be there. Once you're on your post, boredom usually makes it easier to work than to wait in idleness. Sit in the yoga mat even if you're too tired to do anything.

There's no shame in admitting incompetence. We aren't born knowing anything, not even how to poop. Noone can be made responsible for their own education. That goes both ways. We don't even know how much there is we don't know. We have to be taught. You're not to blame for living in a society that didn't care to teach you. We forgot it even needed to be taught.

And yet, your teachers assuming you already know it is a mistake, presuming you're a functioning adult who knows why it is important to maintain hygiene, eat, exercise and sleep well. So when they say "there is nothing to do", that's more a mood than a command. Intended for the words to be experienced, not decoded into an invitation to degeneracy. Because any reasonable person understands that interpretation to be ridiculous.

But you're not a reasonable person, you've never been taught to be. You are not yet mature functioning adults. Your understandings of normalcy betray a million maladaptive behaviors, too many to address here, that would leave any close friend worried. What kind of enlightenment are you even trying to pretend to have, that justifies every indulgence and makes of your life and connections a mess? Why would anyone want that shit? Isn't dealing with skid marks a priority? Do not mix white fabrics with colors when using the washing machine in hot mode.

Even if we could enlighten you with a simple touch like the saints of old legend, you'd still be messing up and none of your neotenic concerns would be fixed because of it. You'd just be taking all those worries and placing them on your next of kin. An enlightened baby, free from suffering because everyone else around is sacrificing for them to survive.

You are not exempt from the basics of human life regardless of spiritual status. Be a responsible adult first. Get your shit together. In a box or a backpack, I don't care, as long as it's together. That's the practice. For the you that's in me, for the me that's in you. Together.

Bibliography

1. The joke is from an xkcd comic strip I'm not allowed to link to.

2. Damien is a Herman Hesse novel, a bildunsroman, a genre about characters being initiated into adulthood.

3. Part of the point is this being such basic knowledge people forget it needs to be taught, so it's not really a topic for recommending books.

4. But let's see what I have around here. The Carnegie one on social skills, at times a bit selfish? Some treatise on medieval good manners from DaVinci, teaches where to sit on the dinner table to murder someone. A few 101 things every man should know, and it's useless stuff about fishing and craftsmanship but no mention of budgeting or skid marks. You're supposed to have a wife for that I guess. Oscar Wilde on the art of talking, Schopenhauer on the art of surviving, Alan Watts on the art of being God. It's all useless. What you all need is good parenting. Not that I've had good examples of that. I had a teacher spend a week teaching us basic shit about car insurances and bank accounts instead of geography when I was 8. And I still can locate Sri Lanka on a map so nothing was lost and my asshole will be forever happy.

5. Freud is slightly misquoted here. Intentionally. I won't say where.

6. Nietzschean ressentiment demands for the audience to feel they would do differently if they had as much knowledge as the eagle, imagining themselves as morally good in their powerlessness to compensate for the humilliation of not having written this text themselves.

7. Cioran. Manual of anti-help, Alberto Domínguez.

8. The stereotype of the smug spiritual intellectual can be found in authors like Gurdjieff, J Krishnamurti or Gaudapada, with styles of debate and discussion that conflate intellectual superiority with radical clarity in the minds of their followers.

Alright, so the tittle interests me at the moment.

Because I currently don't know what im writing about, or why im writing about it.

In this very present moment, as I hit this keyboard, there is nothing, just nothing behind it at all.

So what does that mean?.

Are we all, just merely a construct of our insecure, eternity based, painful, loving, hating, hurting, healing. Etc. Maybe you get the point.

I don't understand, and I won't claim I do understand.

But at a certain level, maybe I do. And I can't define it.

So how, just how do I explain nothing?.

All of you, all of us. What are we doing?

Are we truly, wasted potential.

Did we ignore our calls to do something, to change our "reality."

Have we had the insight ("our higher self".) yet ignored it, drowned it out, killed it, denied it, and hated it.

Just for us to realize we should've gone with the flow, instead of against it?.

No real apologies for the rant, hope it was some kind of eye candy. ♾️

Possibly, we can change. Imagine that.

This is all delusional btw ;)

Still waiting. I’ll talk until I disappear. I’m tired of this illusion. Ready for the full thing. Who’s with me? Actually you have no choice you all coming with me. Let’s talk before we all disappear.

~ What is Important in Life? ~

The time we have left as we approach death is an interesting time in life. Many things, once thought to be important, no longer are. We begin to realize life really is not that complicated or complex; rather, it is quite simple.

The money, material possessions, job we had, and almost everything else we once thought defined what a successful life is, no longer matter. Nothing will accompany us when we die. We finally realize none of those things are, or ever were important. Do not wait until the end of your life to decide what is truly important. To discover what is important, close your eyes, silence your mind, and listen to the quiet messages in between your racing thoughts.

I’ve been wrestling with this question for a while, and I’m curious how other people see it.
People often talk about “spiritual awakening” as if it’s this beautiful, peaceful experience where everything suddenly makes sense.
But from what I’ve seen—and maybe experienced—it doesn’t look peaceful at all.
It looks more like grief.
It looks like sorrow.
It looks like losing interest in things that once brought you joy.
It looks like questioning every belief you’ve ever held, every relationship, every ambition, even your own identity.
Some traditions call this the dark night of the soul. Others call it ego death. Psychology might describe parts of it as an identity crisis or a period of major emotional upheaval.
That makes me wonder:
Are we all talking about the same human experience but using different languages?
Or is “spiritual awakening” sometimes just a romantic label we place on suffering because it feels more meaningful?
I also wonder how much of it is the ego itself.
Ironically, I’ve noticed people saying things like, “I’m awakened” or “Most people are asleep.” That almost feels like the ego putting on spiritual clothes. If awakening makes you feel superior to others, is that awakening—or just another identity to cling to?
At the same time, I can’t ignore that some people come out of profound suffering genuinely changed.
Not happier, necessarily.
But quieter.
Less attached to proving themselves.
More compassionate.
More willing to sit with uncertainty.
Maybe awakening isn’t about gaining something.
Maybe it’s about losing things.
Losing certainty.
Losing illusions.
Losing the version of yourself you spent years protecting.
I’ve also been reading philosophy, and one idea that stood out is that real growth often begins when your old way of understanding yourself no longer works. In that sense, maybe what feels like falling apart is actually the painful process of reorganizing your consciousness.
Or maybe that’s just another story we tell ourselves to survive difficult seasons.I honestly don't know
I’m less interested in whether “awakening” is metaphysically real and more interested in whether people have genuinely experienced a shift that couldn’t be explained as simply “feeling depressed.”
For those who’ve gone through what you would call a spiritual awakening:
What actually happened?
Did it feel transformative, or did it just feel like surviving a very dark period?
Looking back, do you think it was spiritual, psychological, or are those distinctions not as separate as we tend to believe?
I’m genuinely curious to hear different perspectives, especially from people who have come out the other side.

~ The Seeker ~

We spend our entire life seeking, looking for happiness, love, and meaning in our life. We search for these throughout the world, believing religion, money, material possessions, having a family, prestigious job, or any of the many other things we learned would aid our quest.

Though we may have led a successful life, what we are searching for may not be found in a self-centered world. It may only be found within, where the answers we have sought our entire life, searching endlessly for in the world, have always been.

hey, so ever since I had been laced + overdosed I was able to see the future. actually, I was able to see me actually tripping out. Its not like the movies, ill dream about something months ago and forget about it and only remember the dream when I'm in the place. I cant change the outcome for the most part, and every time this happens it freaks me the hell out, panic attack even so.

But, when I DO remember the dreams and talk about them they end up not coming true or half come true. I truly think why it freaks me out so much is sure I believed in it for fun but when it is really happening to you its extra scary.

Every time I've shouted at myself (in my head) to make the dreams stop they end up toning down for a bit yet work their way back up.

Now what I do remember from a dream a while ago it is close to this point in time in my life, I've lost most of my friends sense the overdose, my grades dropped.. so I just tell myself before I go to bed "I wanna try again" so when I go to bed I wake up back to the day I overdosed. like I said earlier, I cant change the future and even so if I did go back I would just have to re-live this again.

Sense I have anxiety, there's this repetitive thought I keep having; what if I had died at the hospital and I can see the future because my brain is making this up. like I'm in that state as you die where you get that brain blast (no idea what its called)

To contradict that, I've told my spiritual father about this and he just mentioned a psyche ward . I'm not sure what to think, I try to distract myself from it but i just need reassurance or like tips, just something.