u/FastCarGoBrr

I spent a lot of time wondering why live at all, until I decided that when lived correctly, life justifies itself without explanation needed. I spent time observing my behaviour until I decided free will doesn’t exist, and that I am shaped more by society than I perhaps had realised.

I am 21, I have a beautiful girlfriend who I couldn’t ask more of, I have a job I enjoy to a decent extent, working in funerals dealing with deceased people that sort of stuff.

But constantly, everyday, I attempt to escape my life in my mind, and create a plan for something ‘real’. I’m still waiting for life to start I suppose.

Whatever I think of for the future, holidays, different ways of living, different jobs, I am constantly bounded by the sense that anything I do matters no more than anything else I can do.

I’m not depressed, my emotions are decently regulated, but I cannot pick a path forward, I cannot settle my mind on a life, or a path, I am running from myself in a sense, and chasing the real me in another sense.

I can dream but I cannot hold a dream, I cannot make sense of life itself, where to put myself, what to do.

Ultimately that’s the question I want answering, what should I do, that’s why I started asking questions at all.

Is it not the man who can say without lying that he himself would not like to be otherwise, that is really enlightened. Enlightenment based in something other than what he is, not his form seeming enlightened, but his state being one of entire content and acceptance.

But then you realise, you do not have to be anything at all special, or even put together, to be this kind of enlightened.

Does anybody else get the urge or have a constant quiet pull towards the idea of living off grid for spiritual reasons.

To remove yourself from the motions of the modern mass society, and to reflect on the nature of existence from a first person perspective.

I’m not saying it’s necessarily ‘better’ just because it’s further from human creation, I’m just saying I always have the sense that doing so would offer perspective that can’t be found in general day to day.

To hunt for your own food even, to build yourself a shelter, with minimal recourses.

Is this idea something that would actually be productive? Or educational in a way?

Or is it not so significant as it seems.

It appears that a large majority of people agree that they are not the bodies processes, but that they are the observer behind them.

For a person to say this, their body (the part talking and processing language), must necessarily know that there is an observer, separate from it.

My question is this, how can an observer, with no properties of interaction, can communicate to the body that it is there.

This leads to many possible conclusions none of which I have thought about greatly although I will, one of which is that consciousness doesn’t exist and it’s an illusion of sorts.

Another perspective is that observation in experiment has actually shown to have effects at a quantum level, perhaps this effect is what drives behaviour?

To summarise if consciousness is separate from the bed of knowledge within the mind, how did it insert itself into that bed of knowledge, so that we know we are conscious?

It appears that a large majority of people agree that they are not the bodies processes, but that they are the observer behind them.

For a person to say this, their body (the part talking and processing language), must necessarily know that there is an observer, separate from it.

My question is this, how can an observer, with no properties of interaction, can communicate to the body that it is there.

This leads to many possible conclusions none of which I have thought about greatly although I will, one of which is that consciousness doesn’t exist and it’s an illusion of sorts.

Another perspective is that observation in experiment has actually shown to have effects at a quantum level, perhaps this effect is what drives behaviour?

To summarise if consciousness is separate from the bed of knowledge within the mind, how did it insert itself into that bed of knowledge, so that we know we are conscious?