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In a lot of spiritual circles, similar to this community, there are certain practices and a focus on love and all those good things. These are all wonderful things to get a human closer to God, but the likelihood of it leading to enlightenment is slim. Perfecting the human, loving God deeply, all that stuff will get you to a point of being a self-actualized human. You'll be wonderful, full of light and love, and if that's what a person is going for, amazing, you have achieved something rare. But all of that is an identity, an ego structure. A perfect, tamed, well-mannered, self-actualized ego is STILL ego. No matter which way you twist and turn it, it is still all ego.

Truth is none of that. It just Is. "You" just are. There's nothing fantastical about it. The achievement of bliss states, super high loving states of godly and worldly proportions, all requires an ego. Again, if that's your personal goal, wonderful. Enlightenment is the biggest let-down that the ego could possibly have. Enlightenment is giving up allllll of the attachments, even to the most beautiful states, and just Being entirely Present.

Me? I have an attachment to the ups and downs in life. I enjoy, as a human, an ego, the rise and fall of life. What I know beyond that is Truth. If i gave up this attachment, there's Enlightenment. Stuff just happens, the body just reacts, it all just Is. Nothing fancy to it. My ego says, "How boring would it be if I gave up the attachment to the ups and downs?!" For now, I listen.

We all have stuff. Stuff that keeps us human, attachments that keep us from non-abiding enlightment. I would say that spirituality itself is a cosmic joke, it all goes full circle. Before, we are ignorant to this whole lovely spiritual side to life that exists. "Oh I can just Witness my thoughts?" "Oh I can experience higher states of consciousness?" It's all a trick. I call it a trap, if Enlightenment is what you seek. The ego loves seeking. The big, lovey dovey, tree-hugging spiritual ego loves seeking even more. We have these lofty goals of being pure, close to God, unity, universal consciousness. All of that is just stuff. Just like an addict seeks for their next hit of a drug, the spiritual seeker looks for the next elevated state; just as trapped as the drug addict.

Do spiritual practices matter? It's a double edged sword. If self-actualization is the end goal, absolutely they are beneficial. If you experience those highest states and still feel as if there's something missing... well, you realize that all of those years spent seeking and practicing was all part of the dream. Maya. She got ya, she got me... The cosmic joke, but only funnier than the initial one.

Much Love

In a lot of spiritual circles, similar to this community, there are certain practices and a focus on love and all those good things. These are all wonderful things to get a human closer to God, but the likelihood of it leading to enlightenment is slim. Perfecting the human, loving God deeply, all that stuff will get you to a point of being a self-actualized human. You'll be wonderful, full of light and love, and if that's what a person is going for, amazing, you have achieved something rare. But all of that is an identity, an ego structure. A perfect, tamed, well-mannered, self-actualized ego is STILL ego. No matter which way you twist and turn it, it is still all ego.

Truth is none of that. It just Is. "You" just are. There's nothing fantastical about it. The achievement of bliss states, super high loving states of godly and worldly proportions, all requires an ego. Again, if that's your personal goal, wonderful. Enlightenment is the biggest let-down that the ego could possibly have. Enlightenment is giving up allllll of the attachments, even to the most beautiful states, and just Being entirely Present.

Me? I have an attachment to the ups and downs in life. I enjoy, as a human, an ego, the rise and fall of life. What I know beyond that is Truth. If i gave up this attachment, there's Enlightenment. Stuff just happens, the body just reacts, it all just Is. Nothing fancy to it. My ego says, "How boring would it be if I gave up the attachment to the ups and downs?!" For now, I listen.

We all have stuff. Stuff that keeps us human, attachments that keep us from non-abiding enlightment. I would say that spirituality itself is a cosmic joke, it all goes full circle. Before, we are ignorant to this whole lovely spiritual side to life that exists. "Oh I can just Witness my thoughts?" "Oh I can experience higher states of consciousness?" It's all a trick. I call it a trap, if Enlightenment is what you seek. The ego loves seeking. The big, lovey dovey, tree-hugging spiritual ego loves seeking even more. We have these lofty goals of being pure, close to God, unity, universal consciousness. All of that is just stuff. Just like an addict seeks for their next hit of a drug, the spiritual seeker looks for the next elevated state; just as trapped as the drug addict.

Do spiritual practices matter? It's a double edged sword. If self-actualization is the end goal, absolutely they are beneficial. If you experience those highest states and still feel as if there's something missing... well, you realize that all of those years spent seeking and practicing was all part of the dream. Maya. She got ya, she got me... The cosmic joke, but only funnier than the initial one.

Much Love

In a lot of spiritual circles, similar to this community, there are certain practices and a focus on love and all those good things. These are all wonderful things to get a human closer to God, but the likelihood of it leading to enlightenment is slim. Perfecting the human, loving God deeply, all that stuff will get you to a point of being a self-actualized human. You'll be wonderful, full of light and love, and if that's what a person is going for, amazing, you have achieved something rare. But all of that is an identity, an ego structure. A perfect, tamed, well-mannered, self-actualized ego is STILL ego. No matter which way you twist and turn it, it is still all ego.

Truth is none of that. It just Is. "You" just are. There's nothing fantastical about it. The achievement of bliss states, super high loving states of godly and worldly proportions, all requires an ego. Again, if that's your personal goal, wonderful. Enlightenment is the biggest let-down that the ego could possibly have. Enlightenment is giving up allllll of the attachments, even to the most beautiful states, and just Being entirely Present.

Me? I have an attachment to the ups and downs in life. I enjoy, as a human, an ego, the rise and fall of life. What I know beyond that is Truth. If i gave up this attachment, there's Enlightenment. Stuff just happens, the body just reacts, it all just Is. Nothing fancy to it. My ego says, "How boring would it be if I gave up the attachment to the ups and downs?!" For now, I listen.

We all have stuff. Stuff that keeps us human, attachments that keep us from non-abiding enlightment. I would say that spirituality itself is a cosmic joke, it all goes full circle. Before, we are ignorant to this whole lovely spiritual side to life that exists. "Oh I can just Witness my thoughts?" "Oh I can experience higher states of consciousness?" It's all a trick. I call it a trap, if Enlightenment is what you seek. The ego loves seeking. The big, lovey dovey, tree-hugging spiritual ego loves seeking even more. We have these lofty goals of being pure, close to God, unity, universal consciousness. All of that is just stuff. Just like an addict seeks for their next hit of a drug, the spiritual seeker looks for the next elevated state; just as trapped as the drug addict.

Do spiritual practices matter? It's a double edged sword. If self-actualization is the end goal, absolutely they are beneficial. If you experience those highest states and still feel as if there's something missing... well, you realize that all of those years spent seeking and practicing was all part of the dream. Maya. She got ya, she got me... The cosmic joke, but only funnier than the initial one.

Much Love

In a lot of spiritual circles, there are certain practices and a focus on love and all those good things. These are all wonderful things to get a human closer to God, but the likelihood of it leading to enlightenment is slim. Perfecting the human, loving God deeply, all that stuff will get you to a point of being a self-actualized human. You'll be wonderful, full of light and love, and if that's what a person is going for, amazing, you have achieved something rare. But all of that is an identity, an ego structure. A perfect, tamed, well-mannered, self-actualized ego is STILL ego. No matter which way you twist and turn it, it is still all ego.

Truth is none of that. It just Is. "You" just are. There's nothing fantastical about it. The achievement of bliss states, super high loving states of godly and worldly proportions, all requires an ego. Again, if that's your personal goal, wonderful. Enlightenment is the biggest let-down that the ego could possibly have. Enlightenment is giving up allllll of the attachments, even to the most beautiful states, and just Being entirely Present.

Me? I have an attachment to the ups and downs in life. I enjoy, as a human, an ego, the rise and fall of life. What I know beyond that is Truth. If i gave up this attachment, there's Enlightenment. Stuff just happens, the body just reacts, it all just Is. Nothing fancy to it. My ego says, "How boring would it be if I gave up the attachment to the ups and downs?!" For now, I listen.

We all have stuff. Stuff that keeps us human, attachments that keep us from non-abiding enlightment. I would say that spirituality itself is a cosmic joke, it all goes full circle. Before, we are ignorant to this whole lovely spiritual side to life that exists. "Oh I can just Witness my thoughts?" "Oh I can experience higher states of consciousness?" It's all a trick. I call it a trap, if Enlightenment is what you seek. The ego loves seeking. The big, lovey dovey, tree-hugging spiritual ego loves seeking even more. We have these lofty goals of being pure, close to God, unity, universal consciousness. All of that is just stuff. Just like an addict seeks for their next hit of a drug, the spiritual seeker looks for the next elevated state; just as trapped as the drug addict.

Do spiritual practices matter? It's a double edged sword. If self-actualization is the end goal, absolutely they are beneficial. If you experience those highest states and still feel as if there's something missing... well, you realize that all of those years spent seeking and practicing was all part of the dream. Maya. She got ya, she got me... The cosmic joke, but only funnier than the initial one.

Much Love

In a lot of spiritual circles, similar to this community, there are certain practices and a focus on love and all those good things. These are all wonderful things to get a human closer to God, but the likelihood of it leading to enlightenment is slim. Perfecting the human, loving God deeply, all that stuff will get you to a point of being a self-actualized human. You'll be wonderful, full of light and love, and if that's what a person is going for, amazing, you have achieved something rare. But all of that is an identity, an ego structure. A perfect, tamed, well-mannered, self-actualized ego is STILL ego. No matter which way you twist and turn it, it is still all ego.

Truth is none of that. It just Is. "You" just are. There's nothing fantastical about it. The achievement of bliss states, super high loving states of godly and worldly proportions, all requires an ego. Again, if that's your personal goal, wonderful. Enlightenment is the biggest let-down that the ego could possibly have. Enlightenment is giving up allllll of the attachments, even to the most beautiful states, and just Being entirely Present.

Me? I have an attachment to the ups and downs in life. I enjoy, as a human, an ego, the rise and fall of life. What I know beyond that is Truth. If i gave up this attachment, there's Enlightenment. Stuff just happens, the body just reacts, it all just Is. Nothing fancy to it. My ego says, "How boring would it be if I gave up the attachment to the ups and downs?!" For now, I listen.

We all have stuff. Stuff that keeps us human, attachments that keep us from non-abiding enlightment. I would say that spirituality itself is a cosmic joke, it all goes full circle. Before, we are ignorant to this whole lovely spiritual side to life that exists. "Oh I can just Witness my thoughts?" "Oh I can experience higher states of consciousness?" It's all a trick. I call it a trap, if Enlightenment is what you seek. The ego loves seeking. The big, lovey dovey, tree-hugging spiritual ego loves seeking even more. We have these lofty goals of being pure, close to God, unity, universal consciousness. All of that is just stuff. Just like an addict seeks for their next hit of a drug, the spiritual seeker looks for the next elevated state; just as trapped as the drug addict.

Do spiritual practices matter? It's a double edged sword. If self-actualization is the end goal, absolutely they are beneficial. If you experience those highest states and still feel as if there's something missing... well, you realize that all of those years spent seeking and practicing was all part of the dream. Maya. She got ya, she got me... The cosmic joke, but only funnier than the initial one.

Much Love

Did I get your attention with that title? Keep reading.

I was responding to someone's message and had a wonderful reflection, I will share it here and add the title context somewhere hidden in the middle ;))

Wonderful post, thank you for sharing.

I love this insight, i've had it myself. It can feel rather empty early on.

In a lot of spiritual circles, similar to this one, there are certain practices and a focus on love and all those good things. These are all wonderful things to get a human closer to God, but the likelihood of it leading to enlightenment is slim. Perfecting the human, loving God deeply, all that stuff will get you to a point of being a self-actualized human. You'll be wonderful, full of light and love, and if that's what a person is going for, amazing, you have achieved something rare. But all of that is an identity, an ego structure. A perfect, tamed, well-mannered, self-actualized ego is STILL ego. No matter which way you twist and turn it, it is still all ego.

Truth is none of that. It just Is. "You" just are. There's nothing fantastical about it. The achievement of bliss states, super high loving states of godly and worldly proportions, all requires an ego. Again, if that's your personal goal, wonderful. Enlightenment is the biggest let-down that the ego could possibly have. Enlightenment is giving up allllll of the attachments, even to the most beautiful states, and just Being entirely Present.

Me? I have an attachment to the ups and downs in life. I enjoy, as a human, an ego, the rise and fall of life. What I know beyond that is Truth. If i gave up this attachment, there's Enlightenment. Stuff just happens, the body just reacts, it all just Is. Nothing fancy to it. My ego says, "How boring would it be if I gave up the attachment to the ups and downs?!" For now, I listen.

We all have stuff. Stuff that keeps us human, attachments that keep us from non-abiding enlightment. I would say that spirituality itself is a cosmic joke, it all goes full circle. Before, we are ignorant to this whole lovely spiritual side to life that exists. "Oh I can just Witness my thoughts?" "Oh I can experience higher states of consciousness?" It's all a trick. I call it a trap, if Enlightenment is what you seek. The ego loves seeking. The big, lovey dovey, tree-hugging spiritual ego loves seeking even more. We have these lofty goals of being pure, close to God, unity, universal consciousness. All of that is just stuff. Just like an addict seeks for their next hit of a drug, the spiritual seeker looks for the next elevated state; just as trapped as the drug addict.

Do spiritual practices matter? It's a double edged sword. If self-actualization is the end goal, absolutely they are beneficial. If you experience those highest states and still feel as if there's something missing... well, you realize that all of those years spent seeking and practicing was all part of the dream. Maya. She got ya, she got me... The cosmic joke, but only funnier than the initial one.

Much Love

jk. Anyhow, for context, there were two redditors who really lit the fire under my spiritual lovey dovey ass; cyberfury being one of them. They love poking holes in our fragile little egos and they kept getting me until i finally fucking realized how stupid and silly it all was. Who am i taking seriously?? Myself? What the fuck is that!? Go ahead and find yourself, RIGHT NOW. Seriously, go. Got it, found yourself? Oh ya you're great...well no, actually your quite shitty. But.. at least you accomplished all that.. shit, right? No, youve done nothing your whole life. What is there to do if theres no one doing it?

Cheers

There comes a point where a dropping of the self is tangible. I always find 'myself' running back into the chaos of the ego. Why? Fear. There is Love and there is Fear. There is still enough of an 'i' present to enjoy the ups and downs (chaos) of Life. If any decision is made, it is made from one of the two, Fear or Love. Why? Because there is an ego present.

You can Love yourself to death or you can Fear yourself to death. It's all the same outcome. Two sides of the same coin; the two flavors of nonduality. For whatever reason, my i is sick of Loving everything to death. That whatever reason is patterns. Patterns of my human self.

Expansion (Love) or Subtraction (Fear). Do you Love "god" to the point where your human self is completely surrendered, or do fear your human self to the point that it is relinquished?

Where is this "you?" Where is this container, this box, that you identify with? The heart? The brain? What is the boundary between you and other? It's all thoughts. Thoughts, thoughts, thoughts. Thoughts give you the concepts and meaning to your sense fields.

Labelling a tree a tree, a car a car, it's all concepts. The smell of grass, all a concept. The pressure on the bottom of 'your' feet, a concept. The sound of a baby crying, a concept. The taste of 'your' favorite food, a concept. Even the 3D landscape that 'you' construct, a concept. Life just Is. The best concept i have created in my mind (haha) is that of a screen. All there is is a flat screen full of all these senses.

There is no 'you' character experiencing anything, because again, where are you located? How have we grown such massive egos to believe that we are somehow different than the screen. A centerpoint of the universe, a god. There is no separate self. You are not that, neti-neti.

What if that all disappeared? I find it personally freeing to be at this edge, this cliff, that my i look off of. My me is not ready to take that leap. My me is still TRYING to do things, such as creating a dial of life where i can turn up and down the ego/awareness. That too is a complete waste of time. There is no time, no space, no doer, no doing. Only IS-ness.

Peace and Love.

There comes a point where a dropping of the self is tangible. I always find 'myself' running back into the chaos of the ego. Why? Fear. There is Love and there is Fear. There is still enough of an 'i' present to enjoy the ups and downs (chaos) of Life. If any decision is made, it is made from one of the two, Fear or Love. Why? Because there is an ego present.

You can Love yourself to death or you can Fear yourself to death. It's all the same outcome. Two sides of the same coin; the two flavors of nonduality. For whatever reason, my i is sick of Loving everything to death. That whatever reason is patterns. Patterns of my human self.

Expansion (Love) or Subtraction (Fear). Do you Love "god" to the point where your human self is completely surrendered, or do fear your human self to the point that it is relinquished?

Where is this "you?" Where is this container, this box, that you identify with? The heart? The brain? What is the boundary between you and other? It's all thoughts. Thoughts, thoughts, thoughts. Thoughts give you the concepts and meaning to your sense fields.

Labelling a tree a tree, a car a car, it's all concepts. The smell of grass, all a concept. The pressure on the bottom of 'your' feet, a concept. The sound of a baby crying, a concept. The taste of 'your' favorite food, a concept. Even the 3D landscape that 'you' construct, a concept. Life just Is. The best concept i have created in my mind (haha) is that of a screen. All there is is a flat screen full of all these senses.

There is no 'you' character experiencing anything, because again, where are you located? How have we grown such massive egos to believe that we are somehow different than the screen. A centerpoint of the universe, a god. There is no separate self. You are not that, neti-neti.

What if that all disappeared? I find it personally freeing to be at this edge, this cliff, that my i look off of. My me is not ready to take that leap. My me is still TRYING to do things, such as creating a dial of life where i can turn up and down the ego/awareness. That too is a complete waste of time. There is no time, no space, no doer, no doing. Only IS-ness.

Peace and Love.

There comes a point where a dropping of the self is tangible. I always find 'myself' running back into the chaos of the ego. Why? Fear. There is Love and there is Fear. There is still enough of an 'i' present to enjoy the ups and downs (chaos) of Life. If any decision is made, it is made from one of the two, Fear or Love. Why? Because there is an ego present.

You can Love yourself to death or you can Fear yourself to death. It's all the same outcome. Two sides of the same coin; the two flavors of nonduality. For whatever reason, my i is sick of Loving everything to death. That whatever reason is patterns. Patterns of my human self.

Expansion (Love) or Subtraction (Fear). Do you Love "god" to the point where your human self is completely surrendered, or do fear your human self to the point that it is relinquished?

Where is this "you?" Where is this container, this box, that you identify with? The heart? The brain? What is the boundary between you and other? It's all thoughts. Thoughts, thoughts, thoughts. Thoughts give you the concepts and meaning to your sense fields.

Labelling a tree a tree, a car a car, it's all concepts. The smell of grass, all a concept. The pressure on the bottom of 'your' feet, a concept. The sound of a baby crying, a concept. The taste of 'your' favorite food, a concept. Even the 3D landscape that 'you' construct, a concept. Life just Is. The best concept i have created in my mind (haha) is that of a screen. All there is is a flat screen full of all these senses.

There is no 'you' character experiencing anything, because again, where are you located? How have we grown such massive egos to believe that we are somehow different than the screen. A centerpoint of the universe, a god. There is no separate self. You are not that, neti-neti.

What if that all disappeared? I find it personally freeing to be at this edge, this cliff, that my i look off of. My me is not ready to take that leap. My me is still TRYING to do things, such as creating a dial of life where i can turn up and down the ego/awareness. That too is a complete waste of time. There is no time, no space, no doer, no doing. Only IS-ness.

Peace and Love.

There comes a point where a dropping of the self is tangible. I always find 'myself' running back into the chaos of the ego. Why? Fear. There is Love and there is Fear. There is still enough of an 'i' present to enjoy the ups and downs (chaos) of Life. If any decision is made, it is made from one of the two, Fear or Love. Why? Because there is an ego present.

You can Love yourself to death or you can Fear yourself to death. It's all the same outcome. Two sides of the same coin; the two flavors of nonduality. For whatever reason, my i is sick of Loving everything to death. That whatever reason is patterns. Patterns of my human self.

Expansion (Love) or Subtraction (Fear). Do you Love "god" to the point where your human self is completely surrendered, or do fear your human self to the point that it is relinquished?

Where is this "you?" Where is this container, this box, that you identify with? The heart? The brain? What is the boundary between you and other? It's all thoughts. Thoughts, thoughts, thoughts. Thoughts give you the concepts and meaning to your sense fields.

Labelling a tree a tree, a car a car, it's all concepts. The smell of grass, all a concept. The pressure on the bottom of 'your' feet, a concept. The sound of a baby crying, a concept. The taste of 'your' favorite food, a concept. Even the 3D landscape that 'you' construct, a concept. Life just Is. The best concept i have created in my mind (haha) is that of a screen. All there is is a flat screen full of all these senses.

There is no 'you' character experiencing anything, because again, where are you located? How have we grown such massive egos to believe that we are somehow different than the screen. A centerpoint of the universe, a god. There is no separate self. You are not that, neti-neti.

What if that all disappeared? I find it personally freeing to be at this edge, this cliff, that my i look off of. My me is not ready to take that leap. My me is still TRYING to do things, such as creating a dial of life where i can turn up and down the ego/awareness. That too is a complete waste of time. There is no time, no space, no doer, no doing. Only IS-ness.

Peace and Love.

There comes a point where a dropping of the self is tangible. I always find 'myself' running back into the chaos of the ego. Why? Fear. There is Love and there is Fear. There is still enough of an 'i' present to enjoy the ups and downs (chaos) of Life. If any decision is made, it is made from one of the two, Fear or Love. Why? Because there is an ego present.

You can Love yourself to death or you can Fear yourself to death. It's all the same outcome. Two sides of the same coin; the two flavors of nonduality. For whatever reason, my i is sick of Loving everything to death. That whatever reason is patterns. Patterns of my human self.

Expansion (Love) or Subtraction (Fear). Do you Love "god" to the point where your human self is completely surrendered, or do fear your human self to the point that it is relinquished?

Where is this "you?" Where is this container, this box, that you identify with? The heart? The brain? What is the boundary between you and other? It's all thoughts. Thoughts, thoughts, thoughts. Thoughts give you the concepts and meaning to your sense fields.

Labelling a tree a tree, a car a car, it's all concepts. The smell of grass, all a concept. The pressure on the bottom of 'your' feet, a concept. The sound of a baby crying, a concept. The taste of 'your' favorite food, a concept. Even the 3D landscape that 'you' construct, a concept. Life just Is. The best concept i have created in my mind (haha) is that of a screen. All there is is a flat screen full of all these senses.

There is no 'you' character experiencing anything, because again, where are you located? How have we grown such massive egos to believe that we are somehow different than the screen. A centerpoint of the universe, a god. There is no separate self. You are not that, neti-neti.

What if that all disappeared? I find it personally freeing to be at this edge, this cliff, that my i look off of. My me is not ready to take that leap. My me is still TRYING to do things, such as creating a dial of life where i can turn up and down the ego/awareness. That too is a complete waste of time. There is no time, no space, no doer, no doing. Only IS-ness.

Peace and Love.

There comes a point where a dropping of the self is tangible. I always find 'myself' running back into the chaos of the ego. Why? Fear. There is Love and there is Fear. There is still enough of an 'i' present to enjoy the ups and downs (chaos) of Life. If any decision is made, it is made from one of the two, Fear or Love. Why? Because there is an ego present.

You can Love yourself to death or you can Fear yourself to death. It's all the same outcome. Two sides of the same coin; the two flavors of nonduality. For whatever reason, my i is sick of Loving everything to death. That whatever reason is patterns. Patterns of my human self.

Expansion (Love) or Subtraction (Fear). Do you Love "god" to the point where your human self is completely surrendered, or do fear your human self to the point that it is relinquished?

Where is this "you?" Where is this container, this box, that you identify with? The heart? The brain? What is the boundary between you and other? It's all thoughts. Thoughts, thoughts, thoughts. Thoughts give you the concepts and meaning to your sense fields.

Labelling a tree a tree, a car a car, it's all concepts. The smell of grass, all a concept. The pressure on the bottom of 'your' feet, a concept. The sound of a baby crying, a concept. The taste of 'your' favorite food, a concept. Even the 3D landscape that 'you' construct, a concept. Life just Is. The best concept i have created in my mind (haha) is that of a screen. All there is is a flat screen full of all these senses.

There is no 'you' character experiencing anything, because again, where are you located? How have we grown such massive egos to believe that we are somehow different than the screen. A centerpoint of the universe, a god. There is no separate self. You are not that, neti-neti.

What if that all disappeared? I find it personally freeing to be at this edge, this cliff, that my i look off of. My me is not ready to take that leap. My me is still TRYING to do things, such as creating a dial of life where i can turn up and down the ego/awareness. That too is a complete waste of time. There is no time, no space, no doer, no doing. Only IS-ness.

Peace and Love.

There comes a point where a dropping of the self is tangible. I always find 'myself' running back into the chaos of the ego. Why? Fear. There is Love and there is Fear. There is still enough of an 'i' present to enjoy the ups and downs (chaos) of Life. If any decision is made, it is made from one of the two, Fear or Love. Why? Because there is an ego present.

You can Love yourself to death or you can Fear yourself to death. It's all the same outcome. Two sides of the same coin; the two flavors of nonduality. For whatever reason, my i is sick of Loving everything to death. That whatever reason is patterns. Patterns of my human self.

Expansion (Love) or Subtraction (Fear). Do you Love "god" to the point where your human self is completely surrendered, or do fear your human self to the point that it is relinquished?

Where is this "you?" Where is this container, this box, that you identify with? The heart? The brain? What is the boundary between you and other? It's all thoughts. Thoughts, thoughts, thoughts. Thoughts give you the concepts and meaning to your sense fields.

Labelling a tree a tree, a car a car, it's all concepts. The smell of grass, all a concept. The pressure on the bottom of 'your' feet, a concept. The sound of a baby crying, a concept. The taste of 'your' favorite food, a concept. Even the 3D landscape that 'you' construct, a concept. Life just Is. The best concept i have created in my mind (haha) is that of a screen. All there is is a flat screen full of all these senses.

There is no 'you' character experiencing anything, because again, where are you located? How have we grown such massive egos to believe that we are somehow different than the screen. A centerpoint of the universe, a god. There is no separate self. You are not that, neti-neti.

What if that all disappeared? I find it personally freeing to be at this edge, this cliff, that my i look off of. My me is not ready to take that leap. My me is still TRYING to do things, such as creating a dial of life where i can turn up and down the ego/awareness. That too is a complete waste of time. There is no time, no space, no doer, no doing. Only IS-ness.

Peace and Love.