u/Dull-Signature385

I hate that I don’t just feel joy and happiness for them. I do, but I also feel empty and full of sadness and envy at the same time. I was supposed to be a mother already.💔 I feel awful for making it about me, it’s not about me, but I just can’t help to feel so much… envy. And now I also feel guilty on top of everything. I don’t even feel like I have it in me to go visit them at the hospital because I feel I’ll lose my shit and just cry 😢 just wanted to vent here with the only people who will ever understand this type of pain. I’m sorry we’re all here.