This movie broke me
I completed this movie a few hours ago. A little bit about me. Ever since I can remember now I have always hated everyone. I wanted to be left alone. I didn't want anyone. Convinced myself I didn't need anyone. No relationships, no children and no family. I wanted to die alone. Now, I can't stop thinking about Jan and Ron and his final words: Happiness is real when shared. I can't stop crying. I'm 24 this year. I connected so much with Chris that I think I can't ever forget him. I know it's just a movie but still it gave me a very important question to think about : Do I still need no one? If not, then who do I want to share my life with and how far am I willing to go?
Before I always used to ask myself, is my life still worth living? Then I changed the question to : If it is not worth living then why am I still alive?
Turned out that I am a very curious person. I was curious about everything. So I decided I will try to explore everything and find what connects with me. I am still trying to find it but this movie has given me a new perspective. I am going to be sharing my moments with someone. I will let myself be loved and cared for. Who knows how long I will live but I am going to make sure that it is meaningful and it has an impact on someone.
I am sorry for this long rant and if you are with me till this end. May you always stay curious and have a meaningful life.