u/DunDunnDunnnnn

So yesterday I was on day 6 of my SR taper. It should’ve been my last day of 7oh. The plan was a 50mg dose, then done, staying on the SR for several more days. Well, I got hit with some INTENSE emotions, mostly crying/sadness and some anger. And I ended up taking 150mg of 7, instead of 50.

That was yesterday. Today I woke up feeling tired and disheartened, and still (despite the extra 7 from yesterday) quite sad. I hate that I went off course, I was doing so well. And it was for nothing, I still feel like shit. The new plan is to take my last dose of 7 today (total 50) and then tomorrow will be first day of no 7.

Any support or ideas to get through this frustration and sadness (I’m sure there is more to come) would be greatly appreciated. I do find it interesting that taking the extra 7 actually made me feel worse today. I feel awful and hungover from it. It definitely didn’t improve anything.

I'm not talking about WDs, I'm talking about while actively on the drug. It was the weirdest thing for me towards the end. I'd get the opiate buzz, but it wasn't the normal cozy/warm opiate buzz. It was tinged with anxiety and a deep lingering depression. I never slept well on it and didn't dream at all while taking it. The more I took, the worse it got. I used kratom for years before this and never had that experience with plain leaf.

I'm just wondering because so many people say that 7 made them function at a higher level - more productive, more social, upbeat, etc. It wasn't like that for me, except maybe in the very beginning. Yet still, I clung to it. Like a toxic relationship.

I'm doing a SR taper and still at a low dose of 7, but as soon as I started reducing, those feelings of doom and gloom started to subside. A bit nervous, as my final dose will be on Saturday. Doing it slow and steady, I want to get it right and never look back.

I started tapering pretty aggressively (by half my normal 7oh dose) and pre-loading the SR at 50mg 3X day. I felt significant discomfort within about 12 hours. Bumped the next SR dose up to 100 and almost felt a lot better within 30 minutes. When I get home from work I will re-write my taper plan. Jeez, I scared myself, I was ready to say "Fuck it" and throw the towel in. So glad I didn't. Lesson learned. I don't love that I have already strayed from my original plan, but I guess that happens sometimes...

I ordered some additional SR so I will have a total of 4g, instead of 3. Question - what is the absolute longest I should stick with the SR, 2 weeks?

Greyhound had 2 places listed:

12017 Watson Blvd and 502 North Davis Drive

My ticked says North Davis, but when I look it up on Google Maps it looks like an abandoned building and there are reviews that say “this is not a bus stop and I missed my bus here.”

So confused! Any help would be much appreciated.