u/DxvilSnipes

I get so anxious around family or new people or anyone in general I don’t know how people do it, I don’t know what’s wrong with me I just feel so anxious all the time.

What are some things I can do to better myself? I go for walks, I drink lots of mineral water weekly and I cut down on drinking lots of pop like I used to. I also made the switch to a hydroxyapatite toothpaste to cut down on fluoride usage.

Please help.

I told my mother about my s*icidal thoughts and she said I was cruel because I'd be leaving my brothers behind and my brothers wouldn't have a mother as she wouldn't be far behind me.. she also said to get that thought out of my head because it’s not happening but also she never asked why I had these thoughts and feelings but shut me down and didn't acknowledge me at all, I feel so lost and unwanted.

I’m so sick of waking up everyday to the same shit with no friends no love life I’m a fucking loser who sits in his bedroom all day doing nothing I hate it I hate every living day of my life I hate waking up I hate going to sleep I threw up the other day from how fucking exhausted I am and all for what? petty fucking change I’m being forced to work 5 days a week for this fucking bullshit I can’t do it anymore “oh it’s normal” no it’s fucking SLAVERY I can’t do it anymore I can’t I was so much happier doing 3 days a week and the manager in the workplace was so kind I miss it I really do it was so easier I’m working 504039292929292x harder for -819183938192729180119292882 less pay it’s so demotivating I hate this life work for a shitty piece of fake currency to survive I HATE IT. Just please take me out someone govt, hitman? anyone please I can’t do this anymore I’m really suffering I don’t want to live anymore I haven’t for years life is so miserable what is the point in anything it’s all meaningless just kill me already and end me it’s not fair.

I constantly feel this heavy weight pulling me into the Earth everyday it fucking kills me inside trying to get out of bed while my head is pounding and my ears are ringing loudly and I’m so exhausted.