My watch has ended.
I always visited my Grandmother at the nursing facility. Today I was there all day, and she passed less than 30minutes after I came back home. She had been suffering through end-stage COPD and diverticulitis the past 4 years.
In May she was in the ICU for almost a month and after she got the Trach and peg she was stabilized. The past two month saw her being sent back to the ICU and then back to the nursing facility once more.
It has been a very hard 4.5 years of taking care of her, and watching her decline first slowly and then rapidly was absolutely terrible. I felt so helpless and in fight or flight mode.
I’m still very much in shock since it just happened and would really appreciate some kind words/advice/encouragement. I’m glad shes no longer suffering, but now the future seems so daunting without her.
She was my best friend and last living grandparent. I just turned 30 last week and I feel… i don’t really know how to feel right now… thank you for reading 🙏🏾❤️