I am wanted
I am wanted, although I am not a criminal.
I am a resident of one of the countries that has been at war for the last few years. Soon after the conflict began, I found myself at the front and spent almost four years there. This war has been dragging on for ages and there is no visible way to resolve this conflict. Preferring not to complain, I continued to do my job, no matter how hard and dangerous it was, but how much longer will I have to live like this, being such a slave, without freedom and the right to choose, obediently doing everything that he is ordered?
Living like an animal in a hole underground with the constant risk of life and all the accompanying inconveniences for several years is difficult, but for me it was all just a stupid obstacle on the path to happiness, men don’t complain, they just do it. However, sooner or later all patience ends. Perhaps I would have continued to carry this burden until I died, but it's all about love. The most beautiful girl in the world is waiting for me, who will be so upset about my death that it could ruin her life. And when my patience came to an end, I left my military service during a short leave, which I managed to get with difficulty. I didn’t return and I was put on the wanted list, this was several months ago. What happens if I get caught? Or rather, when they catch me. It's quite simple, there are two options:
I will go to prison for many years.
I will be sent to the front and soon with 100% probability I will be killed, sent on the most dangerous, albeit very useless missions.
Did I have a plan? Of course, even before escaping, I found lawyers who were ready to help. It's difficult, but still possible. At first they really tried to help, but then apparently they decided that it was easier to keep my money for themselves and not waste effort and money on this matter. I paid a lot of money, almost everything I managed to save, and was left with nothing. Could I sue them for my money? Yes, I could. If I were an ordinary person, and not someone who is wanted. I just chose bad lawyers.
Why haven't I been caught yet? Well, there are probably quite a lot of people like me now, but the main reason is that my beloved is hiding me. Insanely beautiful, smart, interesting, incredibly kind and the best girl I have ever met in this life. It seems to me that even if the whole world is against me, she will still be on my side. Could I love someone more? I dream of proposing to her and building a real family, making her happy every day, enjoying every smile on her face. Such seemingly ordinary things became completely inaccessible to me. Because of my situation, I can’t even find a job, now only the online sphere is available to me, and when you are not a programmer this becomes a problem, yes, there are some official vacancies, but they require identification and verification. And the shadow sphere is just any kind of fraud in which you need to rob honest, gullible people by making them unhappy, such a disgusting job is only for real goats.
I grew up in a poor and dysfunctional family, but despite all the stereotypes I always lived honestly. I worked hard, not sparing myself, to get back on my feet and help my family, I always followed all the rules of law and morality, helped people, stood up for the weak, always did what I thought was right and... And this is what I got in return. I'm 30 and I've become some kind of criminal who should be in prison or just die. A dubious reward. Apparently I'm just a fool who has made bad decisions all my life and lived completely wrong. Or was it just bad luck? To go through so much, to try sincerely throughout life and... And still lose.
“You can make no mistakes and still lose. This is not weakness, this is life."
What is death to someone like me? Those who have avoided it a thousand times already, those who have found themselves dozens of times in situations like “Damn. Well, now I’m definitely finished.” But I can’t bear the thought that I will cause her suffering if I don’t cope. I have to. I have to. How can I fail the most beautiful thing in this world? This soul blooming with the brightest colors, who looks at me with love.
I have to, but how? It seems that I have reached the point where I no longer know how to solve the problem and where to look for a solution. While she works for both of us, I sit and stare blankly at the wall, trying to figure out what I should do.
And you? Yes you are. Try to imagine yourself in my place, what would you do? Despite the fact that it will not be possible to change the country. How would you solve such problems? There are a lot of smart people here, who knows. Maybe there is someone who will give valuable advice.