I don't know if this is the right space to be sharing this, but I am desperate enough to try. Im a 21M who was diagnosed with BPD in 2025.
I was cheated on my entire life. Every ex left me for someone else. I was almost getting tired of trying until I met someone special. She actually treated me right, properly, and never cheated on me. The problem is, because of previous experience, I was an extremely jealous person and had major trust issues. I would also split over stupid little things and regret it. Eventually she couldn't handle it anymore and left me, I understood, but it still hurt a lot. It's something I can't control. It's so unfair. It makes my mind race. I feel misunderstood. I feel like no one understands me. She was the closest person to understanding me and she's gone. I regret everything. I feel like im losing hope and I don't know what to do anymore.
Someone, please help me. Please tell me that there are people out there who are willing to stay and understand me. I don't want to be alone. How do I find the strength to keep going after this? How do I make sure that when I find someone special, I don't mess up again. I want to be understood.