I’m 24 my name is summer and I’m in love with two people and I need to make a choice. Tyler is 22 he’s my boyfriend of 5 years and Sean is 24 and he’s my 1st boyfriend/love.
I’ve been dating Tyler since I was 19. We met at a New Year’s party from out friend group. My best friend (Ava)is dating Tyler’s best friend (manny). We’ve had a long relationship me and Tyler moved in together 4 years ago and hasn’t changed since. But over the years we started fighting a lot and he stopped caring for the relationship and me. I gained weight during the time and he was interested in me. I decided to break up with Tyler and end the cycle of fighting all the time and simply we both were miserable but still loved one another. During my break with Tyler Sean ended up finding me on a dating app . Me and Tyler were each others first everything. We dated for 3 years but Sean had to move away when I was in my junior year. He move to Texas and ended up engaged to a girl. I was with Tyler at the time. Sean came home after calling off the engagement. Sean and I talked a lot at first catching up on the last 7 years. It felt like a movie, we found out we lived by each other and worked at the same job but I quit before seeing him. We started seeing each other getting to know one another again. Some things we didn’t agree on but for the most part Sean was amazing. Sean was someone who planned for the future, and he has a strong love for his family and wants a family of his own. Tyler grew up not wanting kids and wants a life of luxurious adventurous life. I’ve thought about what I want in 5 years and growing up I never wanted a family or anything but being with Sean showed me what is possible. Between both they’re so different. In good ways and bad But deep down I questioned if I was making the right choice. Over time Sean wanted it official and Tyler and I felt like unfinished business. I realized if I picked Sean I would be officially changing a big part of my life. My friendships would change and things would be separate between me and Tyler. I didn’t know if I was ready for the change not knowing what the results would be for me and Sean. So I played it safe and picked Tyler. It’s been a year since my decision and I find myself regretting it, I feel like I missed out on change that my life probably needed to grown into someone new. Not stuck in a relationship where it’s alright but there’s no passion but just passive love. But I’m scared Sean forgot about me. And if I’m ready to commit and take a leap of faith. Should I live with the choice I made because it’s comfortable enough and stable enough or take a chance and make a choice I could regret or could help me in other ways?