I Have felt "Off" for months
I (23f) have felt "off" the last four months or so. at least thats the only way to describe it. Im always tired and feel distant from the world around me, like I am in a fever dream. But not only I am constantly tired, I am also emotionally detached. I feel nothing other than anger or sadness. The slightest things annoy me so much, it is common for me to start raging. The joy and happiness I felt in life are gone. My creativity and sharpness has vanished. Not too long ago I was writing every day and it was actually pretty good, but now its not even that I can't get the words out, they are simply not there. Just nothing. Physically I am drained. Always yawning and looking for pick me ups in snacks or caffeine that never works. It has taken a toll on my marriage. There is no passion or love from my end. I feel no emotions. I thought that maybe I was stressed. I have a part time job and I am also self employed. but two years ago, when I had two part time jobs, a small business, going to night class, and getting married I was under more stress but felt fine. Then I thought that it was bc I was over weight. I have PCOS and suffer from every symptom (I dont know about the infertility and miscarriages though, I have never gotten or tried to get pregnant) But i have been heavy most of my life, 200-250 lb. and this is the first time i have felt this way. It is honestly scarring me on how much I have changed. I dont have insurance and cant afford to go see a doctor. I just wish I knew what was wrong and if anyone can help me.