Should I come off my meds to aid getting diagnosed
As someone who has been depressed most of my life I never saw myself as possibly being bipolar until recently after having what I believe was a hypomanic episode almost 2 years ago now and all my friends who witnessed it agree that it was probably a hypomanic episode and looking back I probably had one about 6 years prior to that too but my NHS mental health nurse seems to think that if she hasn't personally witnessed it that it doesn't count/ "a diagnosis isn't important".
But it very well f*cking is to me because I just want to understand myself but our stupid healthcare system doesn't care and I'm wondering if coming off my antidepressants would help me have another hypomanic episode.
Of course that's a terrible idea for multiple reasons especially since I'm only just getting back to feeling some sense of normalcy after a bad depression "episode".
Any advice would be helpful especially from uk people with experience with the nhs. And feel free to tell me I'm completely wrong and probably not bipolar that would be a help too, it's just the lack of help and lack of answers that is driving me crazy after working so hard to drag myself up out of depression with the goal of getting answers the only thing that got me through and to just be brushed off by the people that are supposed to help makes me want to give up