u/EarthLovingLeftist

I went to the Nomad subreddit and while some folks were very kind and helpful, others didn't seem to appreciate my "homeless" approach to life lol, so I thought I'd post here instead.

So I'm going to be leaving my lifelong home for a nomad\vagabond lifestyle in a few days. My biggest concern is sleeping.

The city I'm going to first has no free campgrounds and the hostels\hotels are too expensive for me at the moment. I don't own a car, either.

I was thinking of just sneaking into parks or wilderness areas at night and sleeping in there, but I don't know how good of an option this is.

How do y'all sleep safely in the outdoors? I'm just worried about some wacko murdering me in my sleep.

For reference, I *do* have a source of income and plan on staying within my own country.

So I'm going to be leaving my lifelong home for a nomad lifestyle in a few days. My biggest concern is sleeping.

The city I'm going to first has no free campgrounds and the hostels\hotels are too expensive for me at the moment. I don't own a car, either.

I was thinking of just sneaking into parks or wilderness areas at night and sleeping in there, but I don't know how good of an option this is.

How do y'all sleep safely in the outdoors? I'm just worried about some wacko murdering me in my sleep.

For a lot of my life, from about age 10 to present (I'm now 20), my parents have done almost nothing with me. And it seriously upsets me because I feel like they just don't want to spend time with me.

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What prompted me to write this post? Tomorrow, my country has a holiday, and there is an event going on in a nearby city to celebrate. I asked my parents if they could drive me there, as I can't drive and wasn't able to afford a bus at the moment. They agreed. I then asked if they wanted to come to the event with me, since they were driving me there anyway, and it could be something fun for us to do together. Their response?

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"No, we'll find something else to do. Our interests are different. You just do your thing."

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Now, this *would* be fine. But there's an excuse like this every. Single. Time. Whether I invite them to an event or just want to watch a movie with them. Even playing a game like Uno gets some kind of excuse as to why they can't do it. I have to literally beg them to spend any time with me, even if it's to do something we're both interested in. And no matter what solutions or alternatives I offer in response to their reasons why they "can't", they're never good enough.

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My parents never make plans to do anything themselves, so it always falls to me to try to find something for us to do that I think we would all enjoy. Which is extremely difficult, because they don't seem to enjoy much.

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Honestly, I learned to stop trying years ago because the answer has always been no. But sometimes, like today, I think I'll just ask and see. And each time I'm reminded why I stopped asking in the first place.

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What's weird is that we actually did used to do things as a family, but it seems like around age 10, they just decided I wasn't worth the effort anymore. I've become so hyper-independent as a result that I struggle to work with others or even form relationships with others that go beyond surface-level. And I have an awful fear of commitment, I think because I'm scared of ending up trapped with people who are like my parents.

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I love my parents, I really do. And that's why it hurts so much to constantly feel like they want nothing to do with me.

So I bought COTW yesterday because it was on sale and I thought, why the hell not? I enjoy hunting games and especially free-roaming games so I figured it would be a good game for me.

The graphics are beautiful and I like the mechanics, BUT... those are the only positives I have to say so far. As much as I want to enjoy this game, I'm honestly thinking about deleting it.

I'm having several problems:

1. The tracking mechanic seems to be broken. I'll select a track, it'll light up blue, and I'll start following it. And then it will either lead me in circles or just disappear completely.

2. Some of my kills seem to disappear. I shot down a bird within my first hour of playing, ran over to get it, and it was gone. I searched the whole area for 10 minutes or so, even way beyond where I thought it fell. Never found it.

3. THE GRASS. UGH, THE GRASS. The scope on my gun is crap, and I can't afford to get a new one yet, so I have to get really close to an animal to get an accurate shot (the aforementioned bird was sheer luck lol). In order to get close enough, I have to go prone. But then I can't see the animals because of the grass! The "spot animal" mechanic with the binoculars isn't helpful either because it only lasts for like 5 seconds.

4. I bought a new gun while playing today. Went to change my loadout. Clicked save loadout. Backed out. And my new gun wasn't in the weapon wheel. So I went back in and got rid of all of my guns except the new one, thinking that would do something. Now ALL of my guns have disappeared from the wheel and I couldn't get them back. I decided to just turn it off.

Anyway, I'm incredibly frustrated and yet I seem to be the only person having these problems because I've looked online for help and haven't found much. The game looks great when I see other people play it, but I just can't seem to get anything done. Do I just suck at this game or what?

I'd really appreciate any advice because I think this game could be fun and I don't want to have wasted $20. I don't know if it matters, but I'm on PS4.

I know exercise is meant to be beneficial for fibromyalgia, and it *has* helped on the rare occasions I've managed to do it consistently. But I *always* end up burning out and becoming practically bed ridden with fatigue.

On top of fibro, I also have depression, AuDHD, and possibly narcolepsy. Kind of the "super fatigued, zero motivation jackpot" lol. And when I do manage to exercise, even for 5 minutes, I burn out and end up so fatigued that I don't want to try again.

I sit in bed just about all day, every day. Often I want to exercise, even if just to stretch my muscles. But I like... physically cannot find the energy or willpower to do it. I can feel my health declining as a result; my muscles are stiffer, my pain is worse, I've started having heart palpitations, and I lose my breath so easily.

It feels like I'm killing myself from how little I exercise, and honestly? I probably am. But I don't know what to do about it because everything feels like too much. I feel like I don't even want to try anymore but I also don't want my body to waste away by the age of 25.

Has anyone else been through something similar? Has anything helped?