Hi! I have discontinued my phd studies in January after a year. The last 4 months from september were really tough (working with a psychologist, nonstop talk about the situation with anyone i knew) and I needed supervisor pressure to say the words eventough I have already made the decision… Since then i got 1 and half month of rest and landed a new, i would say simple job in a completely different field. Im in a kind of finding myself phase and honestly I have not missed it and I have not been longing for that situation ever - quite the opposite I feel free and happy. Nowadays I had to talk about this with colleagues and everyone is so amazed by phd itself it really tore something up in me… and I realized how unprocessed this whole “journey” or “experience” is in me that phd made me go through.
IM really interested, and hopefully some of these people will se this post: how did you process this whole thing? How much time did it take? How do you feel long term?
I cannot shake this feeling how amazing it is to see people be like “wow a phd” but at the same time I am literally repulsed by the whole thing at this moment although I love the science, I hate the system and I have to admit: i have never been a nerd enough for this xd