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but does anyone else not really feel alive if they’re not cutting themselves? it feels like seeing skin open/ seeing blood is one of my only reminders that i’m real

i didn’t sleep at all last night, i feel like im going insane. i spent all night cutting myself and walking around my room thinking. when i was in school, i missed the bell from my advisory class because i was asleep. when i woke up my teacher was asking what’s wrong with me and if im “high” or “doing drugs”. it made me feel like a failure, and that no one ever sees me as anything else but just a druggie or a weirdo just because i have depression.

anyways my friends just made fun of me for it for the rest of the day, i don’t know why they pretend to like me. it’s been on my mind and i needed to get it off my chest

i only really started cutting deeper on my arms recently, while i have been on my legs for a while. i’m scared of people in my gym class thinking i’m a weirdo. i don’t want people to be worried and or tell a teacher or something. i know that it’s my fault for being worried and that it’s my fault for cutting myself, but i just want a way to cover it up without having to skip class by not wearing my uniform like i have been doing. (idk if i put nsfw here, i don’t use reddit much.)