Ex died a few days ago, boyfriend is comforting me
My ex boyfriend died a few days ago, I was messaging him and he didnt respond for a few days and I messaged his friend and ves. he was dead. We had spoke every day for 6 years, dated for 5. All through it we were bestfriends/ incredibly close. He knew everything about me and vice versa. He was a very compassionate and lovely individual who deserved alot more than what he got. We broke up September last vear and it was on and off for quite a bit on year 5, we had a tumultuous relationship and despite loving eachother very much, it didnt work out. It was also long distance, countries away long distance and he was only 19 when he passed
A month ago I met someone new, he's qenuinely extremely sweet and has helped me immensely during this time. I just feel so bad and guilty about crying to him about it. I have also requested but likely wont receive a item that my ex had that represented the relationship quite a bit, I dont want it because I still wanted my ex romantically or anything like that, I just want a physical thing to hold when grieving so that I can put it away when im not. Like the ability to store the grief somewhere when necessary. My boyfriend doesnt seem pleased about the idea which is understandable, I iust dont know what to do to be honest. I have been devastated by the death, its pretty much my bestfriend dead