u/East_Violinist_9110

I am actually older than this and was diagnosed and medicated at 23 and am a couple of years from taking meds for four decades. Fortunately for me for the foreseeable future I have secure housing, a car and a modest pension sufficient for my needs. But my quality of life is very low and have had a joyless existence approaching 15 years now.

I'm just wondering how others that are older are getting on. Can you find meaning in a life where you have missed out on so much? What gives meaning and purpose to your life, if you have found it?

In my case it's perceptual as much as anything. My senses seem intact but the way my brain processes these basic inputs to produce the experience of my reality seems a bit off. My perception of the outside world seems less vivid, diminished. Less than I remember as a kid before the onset of dpdr in my 20s.

An analogy is the perceptual difference or clarity between watching your life unfold as if watching it on a high quality TV and being in the movie as it's being filmed.

Not to be taken literally but does this resonate?