Dark thoughts
I’ve been struggling with my mental health lately because of this immigration pause. Living in constant uncertainty about my future has completely drained me. The pain feels excruciatingly overwhelming that I honestly question whether I deserve to live or…..😭
I can barely eat or sleep anymore. At my last doctor’s appointment, my blood pressure was 146, and my doctor advised me to seek therapy if possible
I’ve been stuck in this situation for a while now now. I finished my bachelor’s degree in December last year, applied for OPT, and my application is still stuck with no answers. I have been married to my USC partner for almost a year now , and our AOS application has made no progress either - seemingly only because I was born in a country labeled “high risk.”
Right now, I can’t work, I can’t travel, and it feels like my entire life is frozen , and I see myself dying slowly
I keep telling myself that difficult situations don’t last forever and that maybe one day the government will reverse this pause, but the uncertainty is destroying me mentally and emotionally.
I never imagined life could feel this cruel, especially when I’ve done everything the right way and still ended up trapped in a situation I have no control over.
I just hope everyone else going through this finds comfort and strength during these difficult times.