I regret doing explicit stuff on the internet
I never showed my face in these photos but my whole nude body was out. I was 18-19 and was so lonely IRL but online, I got validation. : instant messages and sometimes money (not a lot). im a few years older now and I am so ashamed of what I have done. im engaged and my anxiety kicks up like what if my past haunts me? what if he finds out and leaves me? I h8 myself for doing that and wish I never did. I know there is a nude from a few years ago still out there. Technically no one can prove it's me since my face isn't in it and I was much thinner back then lol but still, the thought haunts me.
my dumb ass also shared my phone number with 2 ppl at that time. I was 18 and these men were in their late 30s. one ghosted me after he got married and the other ghosted after I refused to meet up. a few months before the engagement, one of them reached out and we texted but then I realized how effed that was so he got blocked. both are blocked
also before my relationship got serious (only texting/occasionally calling since it was long distance at the time), I sent a bra pic to some random and got $200. I realized this today when I was looking at my bank records. why did I do that.... so dumb and disrespectful to my now fiancee. that was a few years ago but still. holy shit what if he leaves me for that?
I know I sound nuts but not only do I regret my actions but I also worry about potential consequences. like girl why did u do this to urself. plz dont do what I did. stay safe online and IRL