My mom is making my dad visit me while visiting my long distance boyfriend back in my homecountry so he can supervise we don't do "innappropiate stuff" while alone (we're both 19 and I'm paying for my trip lmao) and my mother lashed out on me saying I'm not allowed to go out in my own hometown with my friends and family because she doesn't trust that I won't see my boyfriend outside of my aunt's house (where I'm staying)
And she says she finds it incredible how I prefer a man over my own mother (who beat me up and insulted me all my life while growing up and now hates me even more because I confessed I had a boyfriend ever since 16 because she never allowed me to be near boys for some reason) and she told me I have no friends or family that care for me, specially not her, and that she just has to live with me and interact with me because she pays for my college and lets me live under her roof but that she despises me and will never trust me and she will make it her solemn duty to sabotage and ruin my relationship with my boyfriend because we are both terrible people for hiding our relationship when we were kids...I could continue about her rant but I just hate her and wish she'd die soon. All she's ever done is keep me locked up in my house with no friends and she cut off her own family and my dad's family so no one could "interfere with the way she raises her children" (aka no one can tell her she's wrong). I just feel trapped and like this will never end. I feel hopeless. Why does she hate me so much?