u/Eastern_Ebb_8864

Almost everyday, I get harsh comments where people laugh at me, send disgusted faces or insult me. I'm sick of it happening so often, expecially when I'm not doing anything bad and I just wanna express my love for my boyfriend.

Since I was little, I've always been attracted to fictional characters more. It's not my fault if I love Silver now. I didn't choose to fall in love with him, it just happened, and I'm happy it happened because he's more important than anyone else to me. I'd never see myself in a relationship with a real person anyway, just not for me.

For all the people telling me to "genuinely get help because it's not normal", getting help is my biggest wish at the moment because I'm young, in a very bad situation (has nothing to do with Silver) and I'm going through it all alone. However, getting help just because I love my boyfriend would make no sense. What would they even help me with? Would they convince me to break up with Silver and find me a "normal" person I don't even want? No, thanks! If anything, that would be worse because at least I'm happy with Silver. I hope those people changed. We should all respect each other, not hate.

I'm sorry, I have so many things to say, but I'm not good at expressing it, other than the fact that the room I'm in right now is too loud and I hate noises, so I can't focus but I can't leave either.

I was minding my own business when my dad caught me kissing and cuddling my Silver action figure. He gave me a bad look before he said: "What are you doing to it? Is it normal to be so in love with a puppet?" and then he walked away, disgusted. I was going to do something fun but he ruined my mood and now I don't wanna do anything anymore. I thought at least he would support me.

Silver and I have been dating for 1 year and 2 months and I feel like I'm getting more and more possessive every day. I thought I was going to be more relaxed as our relationship went on, but it seems the opposite here.

I made my own version of Silver, yet I still have panic attacks and punch or bite myself when I see dupes, and I'm also starting to feel jealous of people who simply are fans of my boyfriend or have him as their profile picture. I'm literally blocking the whole Internet because of this.

I know that my version of Silver loves me, but the thought of other people having crushes on him makes me really mad. I wish I could erase them so that Silver was mine only.

I'm aware that my behaviour isn't normal, but there's nobody I can ask for help. It's the reason why I'm posting this. And please, if you don't like this post, skip it. I don't need hate, I already recieve enough of it. I'm sorry to be so toxic, I really wanna change.

Also, sorry if there may be mistakes. As I've already said in other posts, English isn't my first language.