Saw my AP of 3 years after low NC
tl:dr
Met with AP for the first time after our break up (pause?), had a great time, things are different though in a good way.
During those months, there were new hobbies, personal and work changes, time with husband and friends, therapy. I muted AP on all social media. I work with him, so it was minimal messages and as a group.
I almost missed his muted message to my personal number few months ago, to check in on me. Recently, he reached out again because of a trip. AP eventually asked if I wanted to visit his hotel, and I said yes.
When we first saw each other in the room, we talked and caught up. We talked a bit about the time when I had done the initial break up and what was going on with my life (it was honestly, the first time I shared to him what was going on ).
The sex was very comforting and relaxing. In my mind, we would just be tearing at each other. But, went with the mood. AP said that I am very good at what I do, that it's been more than 3 years now since starting it all. I like how he tracks the time too. We spent an entire day together, including lunch and a shopping trip in between, and a lot of sex, kissing, cuddling at night sleeping together.
When we left, we hugged and kissed. It was the softest hug that I ever had. And I said that we will see other again.