u/Eccentric_Blogger

Currently around 3 weeks porn-free and around 8 days of being open and honest with my wife.

I have a therapy appointment for the first time in years on Thursday, and will be going to my first SAA meeting tonight. Also seeking psychiatric help for what I think is OCD.

The past couple of weeks have been the hardest of my life. Not just admitting all the lies to my wife, but admitting all the lies to myself.

It’s so hard admitting I can’t do this alone and that I’m struggling. I’ve finally accepted it and taking the first steps. I’m proud, scared, angry, sad, and so much more all at once.

Not sure why I’m posting this, guess I just need it out of my brain and into the abyss. Thanks to anyone who reads.