how do i break it to my boyfriend that i might still be gay
i’m 19 F ( bf is 19 M ) we’ve together for 2 years. i don’t enjoy the sex we have anymore and i have built up resentment towards him. before we started dating i was only with girls but now i catch myself looking and “lusting” (don’t know the right word) over women, not close to me, not friends just random women thinking that there are gorgeous and some other thoughts.
My mum is a lesbian and always has been, i’ve grown up with a lot of women in and out of the house, i can’t see myself as a lesbian right now but that is personal image issues with my weight and mental health. i will never see myself as someone is is pretty or desirable.
i love watching lesbian sex, i loved it when i did it. i think it’s so intimate and a lot better and more comfortable
there is some “trauma” like between the ages of 7-13 using sex toys, watching porn from a very early age of 8, watching weird kink stuff and speaking to people online that i should of never spoke too. i was very very sexual and would chuck myself at anyone who gave me attention
advice/help/opinion would be much appreciated! harsh or not! i need someone to tell me wtaf is going on