u/EchoesOfCarys

It’s nearly 00:30…is it too late for me to grab some toast & hummus??😂😂

For context I’m F21, my mum has been known to be a narcissist, I still live at home because can’t afford to get a place, I’m on Universal Credit (for a number of reasons 2 of them being I have bad anxiety - can’t get on public transport on my own the other one less relevant is I have ADHD - makes me struggle with a lot of shi like some stuff that others find easy and do with no problem) , and back to looking for work (had a job last year turned out it was just a summer job but even then my mum was on my case trying to get me to see if I can do more hours at my volunteering place or if I can pick up more shifts - I was already working stupid crazy shifts cuz I was working at a pub), had an interview about a month ago never heard back, me and one of my friends went around town handing out my cv and asking if places were hiring - it’s not like I’m not trying to get a job, I also volunteer twice a week and have hobbies so I’m not at home 24/7.

Anyway she came into my room about an hour or so ago telling me to do a bunch of stuff in my room which I just responded with ok to, then she said some point next week (week starting tomorrow) we need to have a chat about where you see yourself in 5 years, next steps and bullshi like that I just responded with ok, after she asked me to respond and I said I just said ok she then sighed got off my bed and left my room in a mood LIKE WHY IS SHE THE ONE IN A MOOD, so who’s in the wrong?? Me or my mum?

So for context there was an incident that happened a couple years ago, me and one of my friends were staying at two of our other friends house (they’re a couple this was either on their wedding night or a few months before) we were in their spare room.

It was around 6am I shot up awake because of a dream I had, or I think it was a dream still to this day I’m not sure, but I saw a tall figure wearing a slanted cowboy hat pointing right at me, I can’t remember if he was walking towards me or standing still but I do remember hearing a ladies voice saying “he wants you get out” it was something along that line, anyway it scared me and when I sat up to tell my friend what had happened she wasn’t next to me.

I decided to creep downstairs to try find her turns out she was asleep on the sofa with her bedding, so I turned round to go back upstairs which is when she woke up and I told her what had happened, she said she’s experienced the same thing and apparently so did their neighbours or something similar.

Since then I’ve had this uneasy feeling at my mums after everyone else is asleep and the lights are off I feel watched and just like something’s off, a few weeks ago my friend called me and we got onto this topic I said do you remember the thing that happened when we were at Lucas & Katherine’s (not their actual names) she said yeah I then went on to say even tho that was my only experience since that day I’ve always felt eerie at my mum’s when everyone’s asleep and she said she’s the same when she stays over, which has me thinking something might be attached??