u/EconomyBright

My baby used to feed decently till the 7th month vaccination. She used to eat purees (ragi, veg mix etc). Now she refuses food if offered using a spoon. She will eat only if its any of the following:

1. I'm eating and its from my plate

2. I'm using my hands to feed her (even this she rejects after 2 or 3 times and then we have to show her stuff outside etc)

3. There's some kind of texture

In all the cases, sometimes she wont open her mouth at all, even though I know its something she likes. I have resorted to forcefully (not like trauma inducing - no crying) feeding her by inserting a little initially. Then she realises it's something she likes and starts eating (she starts saying "um um" to give her more). But stops after few bites. And then starts playing. If I take her outside also, she will only open her mouth occasionally.

And we have completely stopped eating at the high chair. She will only eat if i put her on my lap.

Spoon hate - People at home are suggesting maybe it hurts (we are using silicon spoon) and no teeth visible yet.

Will this continue on? I'm always starting the feeding on high chair and now we end up going out just so that she eats. Going out and successfully feeding has only started since last 3 days. Almost the entire last month she has been barely eating one or two spoons each mealtime. I resorted to going out even though I swore I will never, because I was worried she's the same weight this entire month and a half.

NB: I noted the timeline as till 7th month vaccination because that day she ate 1 katori ragi before going to hospital. But ever since that day she has not finished even half katori ragi.

Development wise I think she's doing fine (walking on fours, trying to stand, babbling a lot)

I'm 8 months postpartum. 2 months into my job. I'm finding it so difficult to even prioritise my work or feel any motivation.

There's already layoffs (I'm in tech) looming over my head. Every quarter 1000s are getting laid off in my organisation. On top of it all I have to learn so many new things with AI coming up and I'm already finding it difficult to recall what I had been doing before. I can't even remember how I used to do very simple mundane tasks.

My head is always thinking about what to feed baby today, what food item to try new, what combination today, baby is sick , baby is happy and so on.

I try to catch up on work on Saturday and Sunday (because I'm really not finishing things not because its hard, earlier i coule have done it so fast, but I'm not able to focus at all) and when baby cries and wants to be with me, I'm like work doesn't matter right now, I'll take the baby.

Does it get better? Am I losing my ambition and motivation? I need this job/some job financially. So not working is not an option. (Everyday I dream of winning some lottery and retiring early) But this is soooo difficult. I don't know if I'm the only one who feels like this.

In my defense, my days are hectic. My baby is stuck to me from 7pm to 9am (breastfeeding and multiple waking at night). 9am nanny comes, and I work from home, but ours is a small 2bhk. So its not possible to avoid baby whole day. And since its just me, nanny and baby, I pop up whenever needed like baby getting cranky, or nanny needing a bathroom/water break etc. I switch context between work sooo much. And on top of it all I end up looking at my phone for baby food recipes etc and lose track of time as well. All day everyday I'm thinking how to improve my baby's life.