u/Ecstatic-Fox-1255

I dont really know if ive been overstimulated in recent memory, im able to deal with a lot of external stimuli and while its annoying, sometimes stressful(constant loud noise in class), ive never really had a meltdowns etc over those type of things before (worst ive felt in environments like class is like being tired, silent and frustrated), its confusing hearing of people talk about overstimulation and everything and i dont even know if even have those reactions to external stimuli(in recent memory)

Im in high school still, and got diagnosed with aspergers and adhd a while ago, its always been draining to spend a long time with friends, but recently its been worse, so much grumpier, sadder, silent etc,i dont exactly know what the cause could be but I feel its in part due to masking so much(too add on to this i have been having compulsions to do specific things in ways which take a lot of time and also become mentally draining), i have a good friend group at school, talk to them, am very energetic and social around them, and while i enjoy being with them, it feels very overwhelming later on in the day, thinking of it, i dont really know what im like not masking, its really sad in my eyes, i want to worry less about what others think of me and stop being so self conscious of myself(i use to never be like this up until highschool) and have school life be less draining because its affecting me in so many ways outside of school now

Sorry if a mess to read, best way i can put it.

I'm still in high school,got diagnosed with aspergers and adhd a while ago. This is mainly me ranting, but for such a long time I've had such highs when getting to school and seeing my friends i feel so happy im so sociable and everything feels great but then not even 3 hours later i feel either blank or sad and it often doesnt get better for the rest of the day(its become more noticeable and frequent since this year), it feels like a repeating cycle, happy to go to school, sad by the end and then there are times where sadness just lasts for weeks on end and i feel so tired and empty, and like there is a feeling in me that i cant find and it annoys me so bad, i just want to feel happy