Workplace Politics, Paranoia and Authenticity
I work in a busy office in a big city at a cultural institution. I also have bipolar 1, GAD and SUD. I’ve been through many inpatient stays and medications for most of my adult life and the fact that I’ve managed to hold down a job is a miracle. But I’m starting to feel a lot of paranoid delusional thinking about my coworkers. There is some office politics that can be toxic but my thinking isn’t very strong these days and my meds aren’t working as well. My psych is adjusting the doses and we may even try new meds. But I’m wondering if I should talk to my employer about what’s going on. I told my employer that I had a disability but I didn’t disclose which one and I have not asked for reasonable accommodations. I’m also aware of the stigma my diagnosis has and that my coworkers may judge me or treat me differently based on that. I like my job and want to keep working there but my symptoms are getting worse and I feel like I’m being targeted and bullied at work and it’s really stressing me out and affecting my performance at work. I also want to avoid having to go inpatient again. What should I do?