I genuinely have no clue what to do.
Like beyond the work of my classes I have no idea what I am supposed to do when I am supposed to do it. I have read through my syllabi but they are all so so so loose that I am not sure when I do what and for how long and how hard I should try. I am so overwhelmed and confused, I just feel so crazy, and sad. It feels like I hear conflicting advice every single time anyone gives me any amount of advice. I literally just do not know what to expect. Like I hear about "study, study, study, and study some more but I have no idea what I am supposed to study and when and I hear things like "get ahead during syllabus week" but I have absolutely no idea how to "get ahead" it feels like I am in a state of being perpetually behind with every single things I try to do. I am so overwhelmed I punched my desk and split my finger open and now its bleeding everywhere. I just feel so dumb and stupid and I feel like I just can't do anything right, when I am supposed to know everything. I just needed to rant about how miserable I am feeling right now.