u/EducationDeep6670

I just texted my crush today to tell him good luck with his internship (we are in college) and I'm rooting for him. He said thank you (that was it) and I went Instagram and saw that his account was private. No we don't follow each other but his account was on public. So Im confused on what to do cause this is like the first time I sent him a text like that. Me texting him is rare and I only do it when it pertains to school and its so blunt and straight forward, he is usually the one that put emotions into the text. Crazy thing is I was gonna text him tomorrow so my text won't fall into the congrats category but when I was looking through my messages he had read my message for weeks ago that I been sent letting me know that he was expecting a congratulations from me. I don't know what he is think fr.

I’m looking back at everything that’s been going on with me and my crush, and honestly, it’s a lot to process. I’m 19, a culinary student about to graduate, and he’s 21. We’ve spent so much time together in the kitchen, and lately, the energy between us has shifted into what I think is something much deeper than just being classmates but maybe I'm just overthinking.

Here is the situation from my perspective:

The Signs He’s Into Me: He does these little things that really stand out. when we were doing an event, he asked who the plate was sitting on the table, I said mines and he went out of his way to put extra icing and white chocolate ganache on my plate. He compliments my food sometimes. he told me my Salmon dish was great and even asked for the recipe for my sauce . He doesn't even like catfish, but he told me mine is the only kind he’ll eat, and he even shared it with his boss. He also ate it the way that I always eat mine ( I put hot sauce on it). He also starts conversations with me even when I distance myself. For example, we were alone in the kitchen working at different stations, he brought up a food festival and said he wanted to go and I said I was thinking about going to one. But I didn't have the time to do it so I didn't go. I told my best friend everything recently including that and she told me I missed my chance to invite out to go together.

The Body Language: Even when he’s talking to others, his feet are usually pointing toward me. When we were in the office together, we were both so nervous, he was shifting in his seat, He’s also started calling me by my nickname all the time now.

The Family Attempt: During our last event, he actually tried to talk to my family. He was so nervous he just asked "how was the food" and then literally ran away after they said it was great. It’s funny because I told him they’d make him laugh. Also noted after the event we took pictures, two people were between us and managed to wrap his arm around them and grabbed my shoulder, even though In our prom pictures he was standing close to me but we were not touching. (In other photos when he was standing near our other classmate, he stood off to the side.)

The Vulnerability: He’s opened up to me about some really heavy stuff, like his past relationships ( he's done this in a group setting and once in text) He’s listened to me vent and actually gives me input. He even gave me professional advice for my upcoming interview for my internship, telling me to wear my chef uniform and bring my drawings.

The Confusion: It’s not all clear, though. He spends a lot of time with our female classmate and jokes with her in a way that sometimes makes me pause—like making a "meme" joke about kissing. Plus, he doesn't text me outside of class like he does with the rest of the class. He’s also mentioned in when we were eating out with our class that people think he’s gay (which he’s not) and that he can't find a girlfriend.

The Big Transition: We just had our last day together. He’s heading out of state for the summer to complete his internship and I’m starting my internship in the state I'm in. I’m worried that since we don’t text, the connection might fade.

My Plan: I’m scared of rejection, so I’ve been overthinking everything. I was thinking about first texting him the day after he leaves to wish him good luck. I will also wait till we graduate to confess my feelings regardless if he rejects me or not.