Exhausted
I’ve been at a large corporate firm for almost 3 years since graduating from college. The team I joined had significant attrition and def there was a reason for it. Your first thought would be to leave when you join that team.
I later moved to another team on the same floor. I’m the only junior member in my office location while most of the junior team members are based other locations. I am the only one expected to join calls forwarded 5 min before calls, explain things to others, and take on a disproportionate amount of work. Meanwhile, others aren’t held to the same standards. I started off enjoying the team and worked hard but over time I’ve realized that even the manager who initially supported me doesn’t always have my back. Lately, I’ve been coming home exhausted. Accountability flows towards me only.
I’ve a good lead to move to another role within the firm. It would be very different from what I do now and could help me transition from a more technical path into a business oriented role. It would likely delay a promotion that I am otherwise on track to receive in my current team. It is not just a title but will help start my visa processing as well.
At the same time - the politics in my current environment have become increasingly frustrating. I simply don’t have the mental energy for it anymore. Part of me wants to stay a few more months, secure the promotion and then look elsewhere. Another part of me worries that I may not get an opportunity like this internal move again. I’m not even completely sure I’ll enjoy the new role, but it feels like an interesting space to enter and could open new career paths.
More than anything, I’m exhausted by corporate politics and trying to decide whether short-term advancement is worth staying in an environment that is draining me. Last three years taught me one or two things and all I can say is it’s shitty.