I have abandonment issues
I (24F) have never had a long term relationship. All my friends leave me. My best friend of 11 years cut me off today because he can’t be around someone who cheats.
For context, I also thought I cheated on my bf bc someone kissed me at a party without my consent. My bf wasn’t there but I came clean to him and he said that’s crazy bc I didn’t consent and was worried about me instead (got me back to therapy). We have only been dating for 3 months and I’m scared he’d leave too.
My bestfriend sent me a text that he’d be gravely hurt if it happened to him and that is why we can’t be friends anymore before blocking me. Did not even enough time to reply. That was the longest friendship I’ve had with anyone, most people stick around my life for a couple of years being going their own ways. I don’t know what is wrong with me but I can’t take it anymore. Grieving hurts and I’m tired of hurting. I love my best friend and I don’t know what to do.