need to fly long haul in 2 months and I know I will spend the next two months spiralling in fear
I need to fly back home in 2 months (and then return), and absolutely frozen with fear, even thinking about getting on a plane. I fly home every couple months, so did that back in February, and it's time again. Time to prepare myself mentally. it's a 8 to 10 hour flight. I cannot stop myself from reading and looking into plane crashes. Haven't booked my tickets yet but will soon and absolutely freaking out.
I will probably fly BA or Virgin Atlantic which I know are good airlines but it just doesn't help my fear I dont know why. I think what makes me really panic is that even people who eventually did pass away in a plane crash did probably think it is not a very likely event, or remembered the stats of safety of flights to themselves. It could also be me doing the same right now.
my brain is just currently filled with what ifs of turbulence, both engines failing, failed take off, landing and every possible thing really. its so bad I have never successfully watched a movie on a plane or slept for longer than an hour as I always try to check altitude/speed etc and panic as soon as something changes.