Invasive Thoughts 10 Months PP
For context I had ppd for 8 weeks after birth that manifested in invasive thoughts about my husband dying when he would run errands. I did not require treatment and it ran its course. I did connect with my obgyn about it etc. and have a therapist.
My son just turned 10 months old and has started napping appropriately and sleeping through the night 99% of the time. I thought my mental health would improve but the opposite is happening.
I have started to have invasive thoughts again but now they are related to me dying and my son not remembering me as he grows up. When I was pregnant Tatiana Schlossberg’s diagnosis and subsequent passing from leukaemia was a trigger. She wrote about the heartbreak of her young children not remembering her and as a pregnant woman at the time it deeply affected me.
It isn’t all consuming by any means but it comes up in my mind almost every day and makes me very upset.
I’m going to bring it up with my therapist next week but am wondering has anyone else experienced this? I haven’t talked to anyone about this round. It doesn’t impact my daily life or care for my son etc.