I wish there was someone I could tell who would hold him accountable for the abuse and hurt
Im scared to leave, scared of him and of myself and how depressed i'll be. I wish there was someone I could tell who would hold him accountable and tell him that it's not okay to hurt someone like this.
He's called me things like a whore, dumb cunt, slut, dumb dog, brainless animal, worthless, basically everything. He's told me that he's going to come to my house and wring my neck and I quote "beat you within an inch of your life".
He doesn't let me have friends because he thinks im going to cheat on him. It feels like any time I try to have a conversation with him he just ignores everything I say and says "who are you with" or "I know you're with someone you little whore". He always thinks im cheating on him. I can't wear shorts, I can't make friends even if they're girls like me, I can't go out, and I have to text him back within 2 minutes or he gets angry at me and accuses me of cheating.
Im so tired of having a good day then he just ruins it in seconds. Im tired of letting myself let him control my feelings. He always calls me a whore, which I don't know why because he's my first boyfriend, so I dont understand how I can be a whore.
Today he told me he's happy im sad because im a whore and I don't deserve to be happy. I'm so loyal to him, I dont even look at other guys or speak to them, I wear a necklace with his name, I post him on all my social media pages, like I don't understand what I did to deserve this. I'm just so lost and I have 0 support besides him, that's why im scared to leave. I have no parents, no friends I don't know what to do.