Male 11 year old me pretended to be a gamer girl on COD to make friends and got involved in an online relationship with a 17 year old
16 years ago when I was 11 years old, before my voice had dropped, I spent a lot of time playing COD MW2 on the PS3. This one group/clan in particular that I came across were a bunch of cool 17 year olds with better banter than friends my age. I knew that they wouldn't care about me if I tried to make friends with them being myself, so I put my mic on, added a twang to my voice and told them I was a girl. We had some awesome laughs and times over what was almost a year.
One PSN user - THE\_BIRD\_MAGNET started messaging me privately on the playstation and soon the messages started getting flirty. Still to this day I don't really understand why I thought it would be funny to go along with it. I made a fake facebook account, gave him my number, and we would call and message each other day and night. One day he called my number and asked me to be his girlfriend and I said yes.
At some point my voice had to start dropping, it slowly deepened as opposed to cracked, so every time we spoke or played games I had to put more effort into my pitch. Not long after this I started getting bored of the conversations with him. I had to break it to him.
The poor guy who had never met the girl that he got on with so well, that he admitted falling in love with. He called her one night, but soon into the conversation she says to him with her new deep voice "I'm a 12 year old dude"
I feel awful for him and have wanted to say how sorry I am but I didn't start feeling this way about the situation until I got a bit older and started seeing girls. Then I realised what a bizarre situation that guy was in and what a weird little freak I was.
I'm married now and I can only hope you've found a real life girlfriend that does love you back. I'm sorry for all of the shame and embarrassment I would have caused you, especially in front of all your friends. It would be nice to speak personally but you probably won't see this post
I hope you're well.