I (26f) want to try medication for my depression so I can be a better partner in my relationship, but my boyfriend (36m) doesn’t think it’s a good idea?
I’ve been in a “funk” for about 3 months now. It’s getting to the point where I can’t be good company for my boyfriend.
To preface: I am diagnosed with manic depression. I haven’t been medicated in 10 years because I don’t have insurance or the money to properly manage it in that aspect. I have taken his advice on how to avoid triggers (breathing techniques, music, meditation, going for a walk, etc) but none of it helps me. If anything I feel it gets worse.
I don’t know when it started or when it started spiking up, but ever since March I just haven’t been able to be happy. He’s been doing all that he can to help me cheer up, and I appreciate him for that, but I just don’t feel the emotion. We’ve talked about therapy, getting an opinion from doctors, and other emotional techniques that I can try; he isn’t on board with medication. He wants to try any and all options first before even thinking about that route.
Unfortunately, I can say that whether I want to or not, I can say that medication will most likely be the only option. ***TW self expiring*** I have been going through a lot of lows and minimal highs. I’ve attempted 4 times in the past few months, and I’ve been engaging in self h**m. Right now in the moment, it’s the only thing that I feel helps me.
I want to be a good partner, but I don’t want him to get mad at me or look at me different for how I decide to handle my mental issues. I don’t want him to leave me for being medicated; but if I’m still like this, he won’t want to stay with me either. I just need to do something so I don’t lose the only person I care about.
I have an appointment on the 11th with a psychiatrist (recommended by my therapist) who might be able to help.